Bali (19-21 May) !

feb 2011 was AWESOME.
meetups with my pillars of support, AH GONG GIVE MONEY FOR ME TO GO HOLIDAY and it had been the best angpow collection year since i sarted collecting ang pows.

finally everything is confirmed.
hotel : hard rock bali hotel
transport: jetstar
EGGCITED MUCH!!

everyone's been saying hard rock bali's really pretty and i get to go with two my favourite girls.

I CANT WAIT!
grabbed the 47% off per night stay from http://www.liveoffcoupon.com/, so happy!!
charmaine bought tickets for us from jetstar.
IMO, it's still better to buy hotels and flights seperately although there might be deals out there that offer you both in a package.

WHY?
well, let's just say at least you have complete control over what you are paying and will not be slapped with uneccessary charges like the bkk saga as seen on Sunday Times.

it's rather sad that Deal didn't handle this whole incident properly, but it's not going to shake my confidence for group buying.

i was, and still am livingoffcoupons and being able to pamper myself with little treats here and there at a fraction of the price never fails to brighten up my day!

just like liveoffcoupons.com and bigdeals.sg had a $18.80 massage for 60mins @ Novena Square.

dont need to fly to phuket also got affordable massage. I LIKEY!

fingers crossed for better times ahead.

When times get tough, this is what gets me going:

" Love is extravagant in the price it is willing to pay, the time it is willing to give, the hardships it is willing to endure, and the strength it is willing to spend. " --------- Joni Eareckson Tada

I grit my teeth through all these beacause i love you and i know you deserve so much more.
time hasnt been kind to us, so i hope whatever help i can render can make up for it.
i hate to see your laughter being replaced by frowns and sighs everyday, cos you have the most infectious laughter i've ever heard.

relationship 101.

Relationships comprise of sharing with our partners how to communicate with us and attune themselves to us, not teach them.

A girlfriend shouldn't be teaching the boyfriend how to be a boyfriend and vice versa.

because if everything needs to be taught, it kills the element of surprise and to a certain extent, dulls the feelings.

so where to learn?

from female/male friends, books, internet, parents (if you are blessed with lovely parents) and the saddest channel- heartbreaks and failed relationships.

i will definitely teach my son(s) how to treat girls right in the future.

2010 reflections.

For 2010, i wanted to:

#1- let $$ and my piggy bank become best friends
remark: not bff yet but their relationship is getting better. Though i think they will fall out again when i go UK and Europe in May 2011.


#2- get my driving license
remark: it didn't materialise that BUT i DID start my practical in Nov.


#3- pamper myself with short trips and holidays
Taiwan April 2010
free & easy-ed taipei, taichung (love!), kaohsiung, kenting (LOVELOVELOVE!).
Taiwan will always be one of my top holiday destinations.
The people there are real friendly, shopping and food is good and cheap as well.
Clubbing is lovely too!
How NOT to fall in love with such a country?!

the owning shaved ice + milk + fruits.

the lu rou fan (pork) that melts in your mouth.



ALL TIME FAVOURITE AH ZHONG MIAN XIAN!


@ koahsiung with Alvin, myself, shups and Kent (left to right)
all drenched after the jeep flew across the little stream.


fried tofu with mashed potato. VERY YUMMY!!!

playing with fireworks.


black dj @ club.

in taichung, taking photo outside the FIRST BUBBLE TEA SHOP IN TAIWAIN.
the bubble tea that we had was indeed AWESOME!
it was only 12 deg and we were dressed the singapore ssumer style.
i fell sick the next day =/

KENTING! lovely scenerys.

lying in the middle of the SUPER HOT road.
oh i miss these fun and crazy times!

highlight of the trip : jeep ride at kenting! much misses!

Phuket July 2010 with lydia and xiaohui.
was supposed to fly with andre but he punctured his lungs and couldnt fly :(
i was super worried back then but thank god for medical insurance which took care of 100% of the bill at raffles hospital.
seeing that i had no one to go with, the girls were super lovely to book last min and fly with me.

teased by lily the elephant

BEST PHAT THAI EVER!


look at how clear the water is!

the angmoh is actually our tour guide who is estimated to be 2m plus and had to take scoldings from his thai colleauge when the lady tried to cheat us and he accidentally exposed her.

@ karon viewpoint


Bintan with o2 girls in May

still waiting for the photos to be up *cough charmaine*

but it was pure enjoyment spending time with the girls, chilling, playing silly games and laserquest.

love this group of girls who have weathered through all those crazy deadlines with me and watched me grow.

(:

Batam with Andre in Oct

I've been so busy with work and Andre's been so busy with school that we hardly got to spend time together.

So we put aside everything and went over to Batam Harris on a couple package to celebrate our birthdays with a good massage (Harris massage is the best so far our of Bintan, Phuket and Batam) and spend some alone time chilling by the pool and treated ourselves to a steamboat dinner.

happiness is just as simple as spending quality time with the person u love.

remark: GEEEE looking back at all these beautiful memories, i guess i DID fulfill goal #3 pretty well!

#4 & #5 was about friendships.

2010 saw me through many rough patches with a few friends.

some were ressolved with heart to heart talks (thank you for being honest and taking the effort to clear things up), while some came to an end.

I really hoped i was able to find a reason to forgive and forget but i was not able to find any.

When it boils down to differences in characters, values, lifestyle and thinking, it is just not going to work.

There' so much in me that i wanna share but i dont think it's wise to hide behind the screen and start a blog war.

That is never my doing and it never will be.

Time to write messages.

All in all, 2010 had more downs than ups for me.

My grandma passed away in Feb.

She was a blessed lady who lived past 90years old and had 4 generations sending her off.

Although it was a blessing for her to be able to relieve herself from her sufferings (she was sick and had tubes over her and restrictions on diet), it is still sad to know that you can no longer see her or talk to her.

I fell out with two members in my family and moved out.

Dad was so worried that he got into an accident and had 7 stitches.

My heart was broken when i saw his injury and i was torn between moving back and facing shit and moving out to free myself from shit.

In the end, i couldnt bear to be selfish and i moved back.

$$ wise, 2010 was better than 2009 but it was not good enough to allow me to be financially free.

Love wise, I am truely blessed to have Andre Chang with me.

We have our fair share of quarrels but we learn and grow stronger because of them.

I broke down really bad many times and Andre never fails to be there for me despite his crazy workload at school.

He will hold me while i cry, listen to me vent my frustrations and be my trusty advisor.

His family and friends are also very nice to me and makes me feel wanted and accepted.

His mom always makes food for me, smiles warmly at me when i go over and his friends help him to take care of me.

Friends wise, it's a bad year.

I wasnt a good friend cos I was too busy and tired out by work.

I'm ashamed about that and i hope i will be forgiven.

It will be something that i will want to change in 2011.

Nonetheless, thank you to each and everyone who had been there to listen and share my woes and showering me with sweet gestures.

R for random thoughts.

the thing about me is that even if you tell me it's painful to bang my head on the wall, i will still bang my head against it just so that i can experience the pain that you are talking about.

im not afraid of pain or failure.
failures are all part of the bigger picture named success.
even if i did not succeed, i can proudly look you in the eye and tell you that ive tried.
or in thomas edison's words, "I did not see those as failures. I simply found out what was not suitable to make the light bulb."

i dont think being in the society has changed me, but it has taught me not to allow myself to be shortchanged.
sometimes im a little afraid that i might spin out of control in the bid to protect myself but thank god i did not allowed that to happen.

2010 is coming to an end really fast.
there are some things in 2010 which i simply dont understand and probably never will.
there are some times which i tell myself, "live and let live" but im simply too steadfast to my values and principles i can't let it slide.

respect is not demanded, it is earned no matter who you are.
if you dont practice what you preach, respect is something that you will never earn from me; i will never forget how you treated me like i didn't matter.
next time, buy a tape recorder or use your phone to record your words and remember your lies before you open your eyes big big and lie right in my face.

learning from the past.

Andre has been really busy lately, so we both treasure the time that we get to spend together very much.
we also happen to be very broke nowadays- Batam and our birthday presents to each other made us pauppers.
You melt from inside when you know that this person spent his last dollar to make you feel pampered, happy and loved.
He then holds your hand in his and rides through the tough and broke times with you.
I really dont mind simple fare like home cooked sunny sides up & maggie mee or pooling our money together, sharing our food and expenses cos 这种同甘共苦的感觉很幸福。

It's gonna be our 2nd year anni soon.
Our friends envy us for our stable relationship but it really didn't come easy.
Both of us worked really hard to make sure that we communicate and not repeat mistakes from our previous relationships, espically me who drives my boyfriends crazy with my missy-ness.

But this is life. We make mistakes, some bloody expensive and some heartbreaking.. but we've only two choices- learn from it or get screwed by it again.

Went down to NYP to support the SP team last thursday.
When TP scored the winning goal against our girls, I could feel my heart aching for them.
Even after 2 years, I've never stopped feeling for the team.

I really regretted not being there for the team because of my own personal issues that i didn't know how to handle.
Because of my absence, im a total stranger to 95% of the team.
I feel like a mom who had went through pregnancy and childbirth but for some reasons, couldn't be by the child's side and my girl no longer recognises me when I am finally ready to connect with her again.

Time can never be turned back, regrets will always remain as regrets.
I can only learn from my past and not repeat those mistakes again.

the crossroad.

in face of tough times, kind words reach deep into hearts and go a long way.

met up with a girlfriend who witnessed me "fighting" all these years.

we talked about our lives, our pockets and constraints, and she looked at me and said, " im really proud of you for being so independent".

thank you girl , it was something simple but it meant a lot to me.

in a dilenma- left, right or front?

ive been feeling really tired lately.

sometimes i feel really tempted to throw the tower in and take the easy way out but pride, responsiblities and faith forbades me.

the best part of this mega dilenma is that the clock ticking and i don't have much time left.