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Bali (19-21 May) !

2011-03-01T01:58:00.003+08:00

feb 2011 was AWESOME.
meetups with my pillars of support, AH GONG GIVE MONEY FOR ME TO GO HOLIDAY and it had been the best angpow collection year since i sarted collecting ang pows.

finally everything is confirmed.
hotel : hard rock bali hotel
transport: jetstar
EGGCITED MUCH!!

everyone's been saying hard rock bali's really pretty and i get to go with two my favourite girls.

I CANT WAIT!
grabbed the 47% off per night stay from http://www.liveoffcoupon.com/, so happy!!
charmaine bought tickets for us from jetstar.
IMO, it's still better to buy hotels and flights seperately although there might be deals out there that offer you both in a package.

WHY?
well, let's just say at least you have complete control over what you are paying and will not be slapped with uneccessary charges like the bkk saga as seen on Sunday Times.

it's rather sad that Deal didn't handle this whole incident properly, but it's not going to shake my confidence for group buying.

i was, and still am livingoffcoupons and being able to pamper myself with little treats here and there at a fraction of the price never fails to brighten up my day!

just like liveoffcoupons.com and bigdeals.sg had a $18.80 massage for 60mins @ Novena Square.

dont need to fly to phuket also got affordable massage. I LIKEY!

fingers crossed for better times ahead.

2011-02-27T02:44:00.003+08:00

When times get tough, this is what gets me going:

" Love is extravagant in the price it is willing to pay, the time it is willing to give, the hardships it is willing to endure, and the strength it is willing to spend. " --------- Joni Eareckson Tada

I grit my teeth through all these beacause i love you and i know you deserve so much more.
time hasnt been kind to us, so i hope whatever help i can render can make up for it.
i hate to see your laughter being replaced by frowns and sighs everyday, cos you have the most infectious laughter i've ever heard.

relationship 101.

2011-02-10T13:21:00.005+08:00

Relationships comprise of sharing with our partners how to communicate with us and attune themselves to us, not teach them.

A girlfriend shouldn't be teaching the boyfriend how to be a boyfriend and vice versa.

because if everything needs to be taught, it kills the element of surprise and to a certain extent, dulls the feelings.

so where to learn?

from female/male friends, books, internet, parents (if you are blessed with lovely parents) and the saddest channel- heartbreaks and failed relationships.

i will definitely teach my son(s) how to treat girls right in the future.

2010 reflections.

2011-01-08T00:03:00.005+08:00

For 2010, i wanted to:

#1- let $$ and my piggy bank become best friends
remark: not bff yet but their relationship is getting better. Though i think they will fall out again when i go UK and Europe in May 2011.

#2- get my driving license
remark: it didn't materialise that BUT i DID start my practical in Nov.

#3- pamper myself with short trips and holidays
Taiwan April 2010
free & easy-ed taipei, taichung (love!), kaohsiung, kenting (LOVELOVELOVE!).
Taiwan will always be one of my top holiday destinations.
The people there are real friendly, shopping and food is good and cheap as well.
Clubbing is lovely too!
How NOT to fall in love with such a country?!

the owning shaved ice + milk + fruits.

the lu rou fan (pork) that melts in your mouth.

ALL TIME FAVOURITE AH ZHONG MIAN XIAN!

@ koahsiung with Alvin, myself, shups and Kent (left to right)
all drenched after the jeep flew across the little stream.

fried tofu with mashed potato. VERY YUMMY!!!

playing with fireworks.

black dj @ club.

in taichung, taking photo outside the FIRST BUBBLE TEA SHOP IN TAIWAIN.
the bubble tea that we had was indeed AWESOME!
it was only 12 deg and we were dressed the singapore ssumer style.
i fell sick the next day =/

KENTING! lovely scenerys.

lying in the middle of the SUPER HOT road.
oh i miss these fun and crazy times!

highlight of the trip : jeep ride at kenting! much misses!

Phuket July 2010 with lydia and xiaohui.
was supposed to fly with andre but he punctured his lungs and couldnt fly :(
i was super worried back then but thank god for medical insurance which took care of 100% of the bill at raffles hospital.
seeing that i had no one to go with, the girls were super lovely to book last min and fly with me.

teased by lily the elephant

BEST PHAT THAI EVER!

look at how clear the water is!

the angmoh is actually our tour guide who is estimated to be 2m plus and had to take scoldings from his thai colleauge when the lady tried to cheat us and he accidentally exposed her.

@ karon viewpoint

Bintan with o2 girls in May

still waiting for the photos to be up *cough charmaine*

but it was pure enjoyment spending time with the girls, chilling, playing silly games and laserquest.

love this group of girls who have weathered through all those crazy deadlines with me and watched me grow.

Batam with Andre in Oct

I've been so busy with work and Andre's been so busy with school that we hardly got to spend time together.

So we put aside everything and went over to Batam Harris on a couple package to celebrate our birthdays with a good massage (Harris massage is the best so far our of Bintan, Phuket and Batam) and spend some alone time chilling by the pool and treated ourselves to a steamboat dinner.

happiness is just as simple as spending quality time with the person u love.

remark: GEEEE looking back at all these beautiful memories, i guess i DID fulfill goal #3 pretty well!

#4 & #5 was about friendships.

2010 saw me through many rough patches with a few friends.

some were ressolved with heart to heart talks (thank you for being honest and taking the effort to clear things up), while some came to an end.

I really hoped i was able to find a reason to forgive and forget but i was not able to find any.

When it boils down to differences in characters, values, lifestyle and thinking, it is just not going to work.

There' so much in me that i wanna share but i dont think it's wise to hide behind the screen and start a blog war.

That is never my doing and it never will be.

Time to write messages.

All in all, 2010 had more downs than ups for me.

My grandma passed away in Feb.

She was a blessed lady who lived past 90years old and had 4 generations sending her off.

Although it was a blessing for her to be able to relieve herself from her sufferings (she was sick and had tubes over her and restrictions on diet), it is still sad to know that you can no longer see her or talk to her.

I fell out with two members in my family and moved out.

Dad was so worried that he got into an accident and had 7 stitches.

My heart was broken when i saw his injury and i was torn between moving back and facing shit and moving out to free myself from shit.

In the end, i couldnt bear to be selfish and i moved back.

$$ wise, 2010 was better than 2009 but it was not good enough to allow me to be financially free.

Love wise, I am truely blessed to have Andre Chang with me.

We have our fair share of quarrels but we learn and grow stronger because of them.

I broke down really bad many times and Andre never fails to be there for me despite his crazy workload at school.

He will hold me while i cry, listen to me vent my frustrations and be my trusty advisor.

His family and friends are also very nice to me and makes me feel wanted and accepted.

His mom always makes food for me, smiles warmly at me when i go over and his friends help him to take care of me.

Friends wise, it's a bad year.

I wasnt a good friend cos I was too busy and tired out by work.

I'm ashamed about that and i hope i will be forgiven.

It will be something that i will want to change in 2011.

Nonetheless, thank you to each and everyone who had been there to listen and share my woes and showering me with sweet gestures.

R for random thoughts.

2010-12-03T02:46:00.003+08:00

the thing about me is that even if you tell me it's painful to bang my head on the wall, i will still bang my head against it just so that i can experience the pain that you are talking about.

im not afraid of pain or failure.
failures are all part of the bigger picture named success.
even if i did not succeed, i can proudly look you in the eye and tell you that ive tried.
or in thomas edison's words, "I did not see those as failures. I simply found out what was not suitable to make the light bulb."

i dont think being in the society has changed me, but it has taught me not to allow myself to be shortchanged.
sometimes im a little afraid that i might spin out of control in the bid to protect myself but thank god i did not allowed that to happen.

2010 is coming to an end really fast.
there are some things in 2010 which i simply dont understand and probably never will.
there are some times which i tell myself, "live and let live" but im simply too steadfast to my values and principles i can't let it slide.

respect is not demanded, it is earned no matter who you are.
if you dont practice what you preach, respect is something that you will never earn from me; i will never forget how you treated me like i didn't matter.
next time, buy a tape recorder or use your phone to record your words and remember your lies before you open your eyes big big and lie right in my face.

learning from the past.

2010-11-16T01:14:00.005+08:00

Andre has been really busy lately, so we both treasure the time that we get to spend together very much.
we also happen to be very broke nowadays- Batam and our birthday presents to each other made us pauppers.
You melt from inside when you know that this person spent his last dollar to make you feel pampered, happy and loved.
He then holds your hand in his and rides through the tough and broke times with you.
I really dont mind simple fare like home cooked sunny sides up & maggie mee or pooling our money together, sharing our food and expenses cos 这种同甘共苦的感觉很幸福。

It's gonna be our 2nd year anni soon.
Our friends envy us for our stable relationship but it really didn't come easy.
Both of us worked really hard to make sure that we communicate and not repeat mistakes from our previous relationships, espically me who drives my boyfriends crazy with my missy-ness.

But this is life. We make mistakes, some bloody expensive and some heartbreaking.. but we've only two choices- learn from it or get screwed by it again.

Went down to NYP to support the SP team last thursday.
When TP scored the winning goal against our girls, I could feel my heart aching for them.
Even after 2 years, I've never stopped feeling for the team.

I really regretted not being there for the team because of my own personal issues that i didn't know how to handle.
Because of my absence, im a total stranger to 95% of the team.
I feel like a mom who had went through pregnancy and childbirth but for some reasons, couldn't be by the child's side and my girl no longer recognises me when I am finally ready to connect with her again.

Time can never be turned back, regrets will always remain as regrets.
I can only learn from my past and not repeat those mistakes again.

the crossroad.

2010-11-06T02:23:00.004+08:00

in face of tough times, kind words reach deep into hearts and go a long way.

met up with a girlfriend who witnessed me "fighting" all these years.

we talked about our lives, our pockets and constraints, and she looked at me and said, " im really proud of you for being so independent".

thank you girl , it was something simple but it meant a lot to me.

in a dilenma- left, right or front?

ive been feeling really tired lately.

sometimes i feel really tempted to throw the tower in and take the easy way out but pride, responsiblities and faith forbades me.

the best part of this mega dilenma is that the clock ticking and i don't have much time left.

i didn't love you so as to leave you.

2010-11-04T00:23:00.008+08:00

9 out of 10 times,
a child cries out for his parents' attention not because he needed help but because he just needed attention.

so here's my side of the story (and some things about me):

the canning incident when i was 9 left a deep scar in me.
hence, ive stopped placing studies as my priorities since i was 13 cos no matter how well i do, i never do get recognised.
being young, i didn't know how to deal with the hurt within me and i grew up to never really placing studies as my priorities.

went through the system placing more emphasis on out of classroom activities, missing lessons and coming out as a B student.
but ive never regretted.
bcos if you were to ask me to trade my CO or hockey experiences for better grades, i would still choose the path that i've taken -be a B student who can look back at the invaluable out of classroom lessons and stories that she created or took part in.

at least next time i can proudly tell my children that i didn't leave people behind because they couldn't help me with my grades and flock to people who could.

however, im sure now that everyone has grown up and went different paths, we'd just laugh at how silly we were to actually did what we did.
maybe for those who ended up in their non-first choice together, they might have realised there was simply no need to show how ugly they were.

i have nothing personal against anybody now becuase ive long embraced the fact that people have different priorities in life.
there's no right or wrong, it's just different school of thoughts.

just like how a musician doesn't mind living from hand to mouth in exchange for being able to carry out his passion as a profession,
or how a brand concious lady can never give up her high income job to fund her high flying lifestyle.

the musician might never understand how the lady can lead a life with a $_$ face and brain while the lady will think of the musician as "Siao ah! No money to even feed yourself well, still talk big about passion!"

put these two people together you will get free fires and sparks but a quarrel or disagreement does not have to mean that it's someone's fault.

when people have different priorities, it's no one's fault.
it takes one to know the other.
i can never be in your shoes because i am never like you, and i have ALWAYS admired you for being focused.

so i just gotta remind myself that while i feel totally mindfucked currently, i guess i just gotta calm down and remember that i was, and still am, deeply attracted to how focused you are in realising your goals and try my best to be understanding.

meanwhile, i will be a big girl and learn to deal with my problems by myself.

$20k gambatte!

2010-10-28T16:33:00.004+08:00

it'd be totally cool to have this as my car!

am the cash cow for my driving instructor the past two weeks, and will continue to be in the next 3-4 months.

in exchange for the $$$, i stall his car numerous times and startle him with sudden brakes, jerks and jumps..

although driving lessons are sibei expensive,

it feels good to know that i'm paying for everything myself.

the other two major pcoket burners for 2011 will be my uk/europe trip in may-june ($3-5k) and i've decided to go back to school to further my degree in Mass Comm in Sept ($14k).

now i know why those pimples are popping up on my face.
please don't laugh at them when you see them, i'm just very stressed.

but i can do this with my own hands.
(:

p/s: someone has already won the $80k from mac DAMNIT!

decoders, prata & kent's 22nd.

2010-10-18T01:52:00.002+08:00

dear god, thank you for bringing these people into my life.

the two who never fail to entertain.

the most classic shot of cheng to date.

pardon me if you can hardly see my eyes in the above pictures, but that's how i look when im radiating with happiness.
how can i not be when i have such awesome people in my life? <3

happy 22nd Kent!
may all your wishes come through and know that we love you! (:

letting go.

2010-10-10T16:09:00.004+08:00

i wanted to pen down how much this hurts, but i guess andre is right.
i made my choice to let go, so the only option that i have left is to deal with it and move on.

thank you for the 6am htht baby.
jia you with your books. (:

the week has been crazy as usual, i can feel my bones screaming out for a good rest.

a lazy sunday like this -lying in bed and surfing the net- is a luxury.

the sun's really good but somehow im too lazy to go down to laze in the pool.

ahhh i wish im in krabi/ phuket/ bali/ cebu now!

none of them is likely to happen soon given may/june's euro trip + driving in dec ~~and extensive shopping both online and offline~~.

maybe bali in jan, maybe not.

we shall see!

i really want canon/panasonic camera :(

new plans & revised goals.

2010-10-05T00:21:00.007+08:00

been tingling with excitement at the thought of my tavel plans next year.

YES YOU GOT THAT RIGHT I AM GOING TO UK AND EUROPE in 2011 (may/june)!
minus the point that my boy's gonna go away for FIVE FREAKING MONTHS, im super looking forward to 2011.
gonna work extra hard so that i can fly over to tour UK & Europe and hang out with him.
looks like my yearly taiwan affair has to be shelved.
no complains though!

keeping my fingers crossed for a fantastic October.
3/4 of 2010 had gone by.
my revised goals for the remaing 1/4 of the year are to commit to driving by dec, shop less and come up with money for Bali trip in Jan and save up for at least 40% of the money needed for my UK/Europe trip in May/June ~~,of which i believe the 2nd goal is gonna be the most challenging~~.

life holds so much more meaning and excitement with these goals to look forward now.

oh if you are racking your brains what to get me for my birthday at the end of this month,
i just want 4 things:

1. CASH
2. canon/ panasonic camera
3. polaroid camera
4. air ticket to UK
5. sincerity, appreciation and peace

love,
weijie

jeremy's 23rd.

2010-10-03T15:13:00.002+08:00

been shutting myself out from the rest of the world.
all these running around, fights, perverts and peeping tom incidents are really getting to me and spilling over to andre.
poor boy is fighting hard for his academics, which is robbing his sleep and brain cells but never fails to be there for me when i need someone to talk to.

thank you, love.

im sorry if i made anybody feel like ive disappeared from his/her life, i dont mean to.
i just need some time to rejuvenate and i'll be back (:

thank god jeremy threw a cosy party to celebrate his 23rd and i got to unwind with good bbq food, drinks and LOVE LOVE ME~~
2010 has been work-work-work-home, i forgot when was the last time i had such fun or even had a life.
met and caught up with kent and made some new friends too.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEREMY TAN!
thanks for being the great friend that you are (:

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2010-09-21T00:56:00.003+08:00

when a toy falls apart, you can send it for repair.
but what do you do when a human being falls apart?

time heals all wounds?
it's been five years but time did nothing of that sort for me.

i really hate that im so useless.

our picture story.

2010-09-13T14:29:00.004+08:00

been really busy earning my own keeps lately and i run of "fuel" and tire out easily :(

thank god for the loving boyfriend who never fails to be there for me; tolerates my temper as it is, cheers me up when im down and pampers me with endless food and sponsors my shopping even when he's poorer than the very poor me.

im gonna miss you real bad when you fly to the land where men wear skirts and play musical instruments, where some grandmas have moustache and where the lochness monster is.

some pictures to tell our story.

our infamous BLUE OF GREEN debate.

i still insist it's green!

we were groccery shopping at NTUC and his eyes SHONE when he saw the purple potates on sale. i subsequently zonked out at his place and woke up to his special purple salad 1.5hrs later :D

step up 3D date.
boy looking very happy.
it's been really long since we had a proper date cos we are both poor and busy souls, we rarely shop/dine out/ watch movies these days.

kite flying with his friends in August.

saw a pretty but out of budget bag at river island. :( :( :(

flowers for our 20th month.

the day where he got me breakfast and came to help me out with work.
thank you love. (:

we are young, but not too young anymore.

2010-09-07T21:47:00.005+08:00

caught step up 3D over the weekend with my boy.
finally a movie together admist our busy schedule though it made us $29 poorer.
can't wait for liveoffcoupons to be launched.
i REALLY NEED that.

p/s: my brother is starting up a new business where he'd be selling discount coupons on his webby.
deals coming up include $5 movie tickets from Cathy, discounted meal coupons for Waraku and more.
do watch out for my shout out on facebook for my details. (;

"food for thought" from the movie:
one of the actors was saying that he dances to be someone different while the lead actor said that the way one dances shows a lot about him/her.
HMMM makes me wonder what does my dancing says about me. :p

i totally admire the characters for their undying passion for dance and how they are able to do the things that they like as a living.

no need for paper chase, no need for branded dresses/bags/shoes, expensive cars and houses to prove your worth.
decked in whatever they are comfortable in, ( i.e. sports bra, jacket, comfy pants, etc) they dance to show the world who they really are, and that is what touches me the most about the movie.

if i were given a chance, i would love to do the tings that i like for a living.
but how many of us actually get to do so or have the courage/talent to do so?

i like to sing and let my body move to the music but im just not good enough to do it professionally nor do i have the money to take up serious lessons.
even if i do take up the challenge to save and learn, what is my next step from here?
will i be able to earn enough to survive or do i have to struggle to get by?

like i said, not all of us are lucky enough to be able to pursue what we like or brave enough to have the courage to do what we like as a living.
sure i could be selfish and pursue what i wanted but who will be putting the rice on the table for my family?

so most of us just end up following the crowd, report to office 9-5 and beyond, take home wages to put rice on the table and hopefully retire by 65.
how many of us are trapped in this cycle, want to break out of it and yet can't?

no one can or should dictate your life.
so do yourself a favour, give some serious thought to what or how you want your life to be.
plan, map it out.
we are young, but not too young anymore.

pain.

2010-09-06T01:19:00.005+08:00

it hurts to see someone you love being in pain.
it hurts even more to know that you are the source of the heartache and you have to make a choice between being cruel to the person you love or being cruel to yourself.

i told him that i was sorry, i had to be selfish.
i was broken beyond repair and my body was signalling to me that i've reached my threshold.
any further damage i would prob get to call IMH home.
"im sorry. just let me go," i told him.

i was bent on never going back again but a call came in and i was told he got into an accident.

7 stitches.
seeing him so torn up and worn out over me, i just couldn't bring myself to walk out on him anymore.

just want to say, i love you. i do.
if you love me too, don't be cruel to me by being kind.
i really wanted to go.

365 x1.5 love.

2010-07-04T01:43:00.004+08:00

全都看的見

写一首歌让你轻轻的哼让我清楚的喔告诉你这是写给你的歌

爱一个人不需要太天真只需要你是懂我的人就足够深刻

能够陪在你身边的会是怎样的人

我多希望我就是你想找的那个人

只要你也愿意把真心都坦承就别再怕伤痕

*请相信

我们的未来不会太远我全都看的见

在你无法入睡的寂寞伴著夜我不会走远

我们的天空连一条线我全都看的见

我闭上双眼脑袋全都是你的画面

想著你的美 Baby

since 17.

2010-06-27T02:15:00.003+08:00

i am not expecting to be one anytime soon (pun not intended), but i feel like a parent who is trying to nuture stubborn kids.
irony is the more frustrated i get with these kids, the happier i feel for i know that i am on the right track.

it's alright.
time will tell who is the good guy and who is the bad guy.
i did my part as a friend, i did my part as a daugther, i did my part as a employee.

i didn't change.
no one brainwashed me.
i just merely found my direction, defined my goals, a job that i enjoy and a team that i love working with- all in one.
if you can recall, my goals had always been the same.
my tears had always been for the same reason too, ever since i was 17.

thank you to all those who had given support.
i will make it big and remember you guys.

WWIII.

2010-06-19T02:43:00.002+08:00

we had one of our fiercest fights yesterday, but what doesnt kill us makes us stronger and what doesn't break you us, makes us.

i love you andre chang cheong joo.
pluck your eyebrows till they are white ok? (:

2 year plan.

2010-05-24T01:42:00.002+08:00

perhaps it's cos im getting more unfeeling and logical, it no longer gets to me as much as it used to.

still, i swear not to let myself be subjected to all this shit in two years' time.

i dont need a car that boosts 4 exhaust pipes nor do i need a luxurious home.

just something that moves me from point to point as and when i need it and keeps me away from all the ti go peks + a roof that i enjoy living under will do.

2 years.

just 2.

i will make it happen with my own hands.

a new chapter?

2010-05-17T23:47:00.007+08:00

love chilling in my room with 933fm & its fabulous song list.

this will probably be a luxury that i wont be able to indulge in starting tomorrow.

gonna start training this week and then report to work the following week.

goodbye slacking, my love-hate affair.

had a talk with mom ytd, explaining to her my decision to hop around.

i hope she buys it.

at 21 PLUS, youth IS my biggest chip.

i need to "sample and hop" before my biggest chip expires.

my mom never knew that it bothers me as much as my brothers, relatives, herself and my dad that im so unsettled.

i struggled with it ( and still am) for a good six months.

i really hate finding my way around this whole maze, handicapped without a compass.

no one really knew how much of myself i kept stored away after i got burnt from my last two horrible working experiences.

im keeping my fingers crossed that this time round this new chapter is here to stay.

or at the very least, it's not here to burn my fingers again.

of cos, when there are downs, there are ups too.

nothing can go too wrong when Andre's such a dear.

finally! a proper date after 4 months!!

after our yummy dinner and ip man2 ( i love donnie yen!) , we got stuck with playing with yikai who loved andre's company.

seems to be the case for my dearest boy too.

the happiest person of the night, other than yikai, was my mom.

we eventually took yikai out for a stroll at NTUC and she was so happy to be free!

i swear EVERYONE gave us weird looks.

April's taiwan trip was one of those defining moments for the first half of 2010.

the jeep ride was the best part of the trip for ALL of us.

the beauty of travelling with others is that you get to learn more about each other when you travel together.

no matter what happened, im glad i got to know my pals better.

we've been back for almost a month, but i still catch myself smiling at the photos whenever i browse through them on facebook. (:

gonna do a compilation album and taiwan entry when ALL the photos are up.

the recent bintan trip with the o2 girls was awesome.

things ain't like how they were when we were schooling;we used to have plenty of energy and time.

with work sucking the energy out of us, times like these where we get to come together and play dumb games, tease and chill with each other are precious and treasured.

on top of that, the 2hr massage and body scrub was just what my body needed!

a tip for those who are heading over to bintan: head to pasar oleh oleh for massages.

the hotel's rates are DOUBLE of pasar oleh oleh's.

again, more details to be up when the photos are in.

the other consolation of 2010 is to know that a certain good friend of mine is free from the unhappiness that he has been shouldering since.. 1.5 years ago.

i hope life continues to treat you well my dear.

the other incidents which added to the happy chapters of my march-may journey was the clubbing session with xinyi, "lim kopi" session with js, thomas, pw and kent and XJT's concert which i had been waiting and waiting for pictures to blog about!

aussie/korea and phuket trip coming up in the next half of 2010.

the time now is 6:39am. Morning world (:

2010-05-01T06:39:00.003+08:00

ive once again proven to myself that im ultra sensitive to caffeine.

for a moment when i was on the phone with Andre at around 5am, his gentle voice was a lullaby.

my eyes were closing and i mumbled goodbye.

however when our conversation ended, my heartbeat started picking up again and i couldnt stop tossing around my queen sized bed (i know, the size is not much of a help).
i gave up on sleep and came up with 'THE BIG $$$ PLAN' for Aussie, Langkawi, Bintan and driving.

it's not gonna be easy.

but like i told Alvin, Shups and Kent during the jeep ride in Taiwan, " THIS IS DEFINITELY WORTH EVERY MOMENT OF MY SCRIMPING AND SAVING!"

back to the caffeine thingy.

the object of the unintended experiment, aka the Hong Kong Cafe Milk Tea, together with the coffee from Starbucks, are now on my banned list of drinks, unless i need to rush any work and intend to forgo my sleep.

it's such a pity cos i really like the Hong Kong Cafe's milk tea and Starbuck's Java choco chip. :(

ive never been awake at this hour ever since ive left the company with the capital E.

the sky's a beautiful orangey grey, leaving me feeling really sorry that i don't have a proper camera to capture the beauty of it.

well, i hope i manage to hunt down a reasonably good bargain at the Harvey Norman's IT fair at Suntec on Sunday.

plus a good selection of lingerie at Metro's Expo Sale too please!

being awake at this hour reminds me of the conversation that me and Andre had till 7am some 1 year 4 months back. (:

the silly boy is probably asleep now, I HOPE.

can't wait to see his grinny face when i spring a surprise visit to wake him up later.

gonna go running soon to flush out the effects of the caffeine.

then head to the pool for the morning, wake my sweetheart up in the noon, head to true yoga for hot yoga and bodycombat lessons, make money and spend time with dearest xinyi.

awww, such a beautiful day.

((:

idea.

2010-04-28T00:58:00.004+08:00

i was VERY tempted by agneselle's backorders and wanted to recklessly order 3-4 pieces despite my wallet disagreeing. :S

then, my brain kindly reminded me of two things:

1. the bad service i was given the last time (which is why i have to re-order now)

2. the not-so-ideal fitting due to PL and Agnes being skinny people. i always feel like i cannot breath properly after getting into their clothes ~~and have to end up ditching my bra for stick ons~~ does any AE buyers have the same problem? or maybe its just that im bigger than them.

with 2 very solid reasons to reduce damage on my withering account, i shrunk my order to just 1 piece and the indecisive woman in me AGAIN couldnt decide on what she wants.

well. time for magic then!

i pieced my very-delighted-to see-meatball-face with PL's body and did a comparison between blue ( the colour that complements my cool skin tone all the time) and purple (my hard to pull off colour).

the very-delighted-to see-meatball-face, original version.
starving after 6-7 hours of travelling and abstinence from food, give me porridge i also will :D

anyway,

are you aware of your skin tone?

you need to be!

excerpt from mineral make up reviews:

With the correct colors (in cosmetics and clothing):
Your skin tone will appear radiant and glowing
Your eyes will appear brighter and clearer
Your hair will reflect highlights
You will hear compliments - such as "You look great"!

With the wrong colors (in cosmetics and clothing) :
Your skin tone will appear tired and drained
Your eyes may appear shadowed, dark circles
Even your teeth can appear with a slight yellow hue
You will hear comments - such as "You look tired” "Do you feel OK?"

the cool colours

the warm colours

if you're still not sure of your skin tone, the best test would be to put on a stark white top and a cream top.
snap a picture (aka camwhore) with both tops and see which one brings a glow to your face whereas which one makes you look tired.

if it's the white top, chances are you have a cool skin tone.

if it's the cream top, chances are you have a warm skin tone.

have fun camwhoring! :D

gap.

2010-04-23T01:58:00.003+08:00

am i being sensitive or is this real?

it feels like the gap's getting bigger and bigger.

just like the way it did the other time.

time will tell and heal, just like it did before.

i hope.

pre-flight blues.

2010-04-12T03:22:00.002+08:00

it's a little silly, but im feeling emo instead of excited about my taiwan trip, though the idea of having breakfast at the airport perks me up a little. :D

breakfasts are always my favourite meal of the day ~~if i dont oversleep.~~ cos it gets me started on my day on the right note.

it suddenly hit me how much i missed last year's taiwan trip and the jj gang.

i miss andre too.

the news about poland's plane crash was very saddening and shocking.

imagine your leaders all gone AT ONCE, the pain is... beyond words.

buddha, please bless Poland.

ahhhh,

now i feel much better after getting it off my fingers.

boom-zi-BOOMZ!

2010-04-10T00:42:00.016+08:00

#1- random Sunday evenings.

i believe that i didnt keep it a secret that im heading for a 8d7n trip to Taiwan with the 3 great pals of mine that you see in our joyous biggie photo.
we are targeting a record of 5000, that's right, FIVE OH OH OH PHOTOS for our eight days trip, so watch out for us blasting your facebook with our taiwan photos in... *gasps* TWO DAYS!!!

really grateful to Alvin for all that he's put in for us, so we are also gonna make sure his birthday's a BOOMZ! :D

i forgot when it started happening but Sunday nights are no doubt the most anticipated part of the week for me.
Every Sunday, Andre would drop by my house before he goes back to hall and we would spend some simple quality chatting, watching tv, bleach, or grocery shop at NTUC.

one of the culprits responsible for making me miss morning yoga lessons.

in his words, " her new found love, and excuse to keep rolling around in bed"

thank god i dont have a dog (though i'd very much love to), else he'd CONFIRM PLUS CHOP jump onto my bed to play with this pillow every single minute!

well i wont blame him since i cant resist it myself. :P

it's just so comfy and huggable!

best of all, the silly boy would buy me titbits that i love for me to munch on & piggyback me whenever i want to. :D

i think he has difficulty posing for the photo thanks to me and the CHOCOLATE WAFFLE REDONA, CHOCOLATES AND SWEETS that he's gotten for me.

#2- Andre's April's Fool's surprise

we hadn't went on a proper date in AGES.

so on April's Fool's day, we both took time out from our busy schedules for a mini date.

ben 10's Challenger, $12.90++.

very apt name because it is REALLY A HUGE CHALLENGE which we failed as we were rushing for "When in Rome" and didn't have time to finish it.

just imagine the height of the tub is about the height of my palm.

that is how big it is!

the pudding is DEFINITELY the best part of the ice cream.

other than that, the ice cream's just normal, served in a GIGANTIC portion, and the fruits are just.. fruits. (:

but i will still find time to challenge it properly again just for the fun and novelty of eating such HUGE ice cream!

after the meal & movie, comes the surprise! (;

seeing = no fun

blindfold blindfold blindfold!

Mr Andre Chang glowing with happiness, uncertainty and love. (:

oh oh, please be careful with that baby.

they say couples imitate each other sub-consciously.

i agree.

the funny part is, he was the one who pointed out to me that i purse my lips together when im concentrating on doing something.

the unsuccessful attempt at protecting his new toy aka pimlefied itouch.

(:

medal for the greatest boyfriend who melted me with his sweetness, has been working hard to pamper me, accomodating my wishes and understanding of my mood swings.

yes, you are. (:

#Good Friday
paternal family bbq and xiaohui's ROM.

with dear lydia and the bride, xiaohui.

congrats on your new phrase of life babe!

4.5 litres. bottoms up!

but....i hate beer. :(

lydia (:

the girls and xiaohui's husband.

that's right. gimme liquor and im all smiles.

so are lydia and cindy! :P

i forgot why i looked so amused here.

reason for this photo:

HOLY COW! i ran into my cousin and my cousin in law!

turns out my cousin in law is xiaohui's husband's friend.

what a small world.

lydia,
thank you for introducing me to your friends and being there for me always.

it's amazing how we grew closer and closer, have more and more things to talk (hehe you know i know) about even though we came from totally different backgrounds.

muack!

"life without passion is unforgivable" --Sean John Combs.

2010-04-07T02:32:00.004+08:00

that's right.
only 22 and making her dreams come true with her own hands.
(:

proud of you, my dear stubborn capricon bestie. (:

you know best the struggles that you went through and the hardships that you endured.

but it doesn't matter cos you've made it now! (:

gambatte!

here's another group of people whose passion shine so radiantly that it touches hearts of many.

mayday, my favourite chinese band of all time. (:
this was really old, when they were toot and focused their heart and soul our their music, their passion, and did not have much styling.

moving on to donning more suave looking styles.

but no matter what their style may be, there's one thing that never changes : their passion for music.
i can literally feel Ah Xin pouring his soul into the song that he is singing just by looking at the picture.
each and every of their concert never fail to rock socks.

the other reason why i love them deeply is because no matter how popular they are, they NEVER forget about their fans.

at autograph sessions,
they would stay and sign till the last fan gets their signature before they pack and go.

ive never had the chance to experience their concert live,

but from what i see from TV,
it is ALWAYS packed and HIGH TO THE MAX!

guarantee plus chop no single audience will be left feeling "the concert like not worth leh"

what amazes me also, is how the five guys stuck together and grew with each other, vs the no of bands out there who have came and went (broke up to be exact) in the PAST ELEVEN YEARS.

and now they've shifted their Singapore's concert venue to the National Stadium and there's $38 bucks student price!

urghh but im in taiwan when they are in Singapore!

cannot see this..

this...

and this live, and jump like mad monkey with them already! :(

bahh! i swear i will either fly to Taiwan or be 202% sure that i am in Singapore for their next concert!

ending with a picture of my favourite member of the band cum lead singer, Ah Xin.

i totally dig guys who loves kids, and write songs that speak to the heart:D

my next next holiday!

2010-04-01T01:35:00.006+08:00

here's the plan:
setting aside 1.5-1.8k and probably 10-12 days.

first stop: phuket

transport: airplane

budget: $400
duration: 4d3n

chillax under the sun, oiled with suntan lotion, a glass of red wine, smoothie or fruit punch in my right hand and a read in my left.

have fun with the water sports till the sun sets.
how beautiful it would be to be able to admire the sunset in mid-air....

pamper myself with alfresco dining/pubbing.
let my body relax and groove to the jazzy music.
no rush to chiong through dinner.

enjoy the breeze brushing against on my face and let the relaxing sound of the waves cleanse my mind of the troubles and worries that it's been suffocating itself with.

stay at the beautiful mansion style resorts that has its own swimming pool.

and if budget and time permits,

explore phuket!

next stop: Bangkok, Thailand

transport: bicycle
budget: $600- $900
duration: 2 days (cycling) + 4d3n (shop and eat till drop!)

here's the route! gonna scout around for foldable bicycles starting today (:

if the lady that Shuping met can CYCLE from HOLLAND to SINGAPORE

(YES HOLLAND! NOT HOLLAND VILLAGE!)

im pretty sure i can cycle from Phuket to Bangkok too!

im totally in love with the idea of cycling around a country to explore what it has to offer.

so, if you have good deals on foldable bikes or tickets to phuket, PLEASE LET ME KNOW!
ARIGATO!

121-59967-8, you have TWELVE more days to fatten yourself!

2010-03-30T01:46:00.006+08:00

1 more day to April= need to "bankai" on saving money for Taiwan.

aim of the week- spend within $5 budget and activities coming up:
1. lunch with elvin (tue)
2. suanhwee's opening (wed)
3. movie date with andre (thurs WOO!)
4. bbq at cousin's (fri)
5. Xiaohui's ROM post party @ dragonfly (fri)
- looking forward to the 4.5l of alcohol at Xiaohui's post party!
- need to drink more more more water liao if not no voice to teach.

impart you all my money saving skills when i have the time ;)

Alvin, the amazing planner, planned a solid itinerary for us!
travelling in a U shaped manner around Kaohsiung, Kenting, Taitung, Hualian, Taipei and Ji Long!

KENTING!

i have always been a fan of nature and outdoors.

Kenting's gonna be heaven!

JI LONG (seafood)/ JIU FEN(vintage streets)/ YE LIU(stone structures)!

can hardly contain my excitement at the thought of being able to immerse myself in the beautiful sceneries, learn about their cultures and laugh an high till stomach ache with Shuping, Kent and Alvin.

am already drooling at all the boots, clothes, makeup and foodies that im gonna get my hands on.

Alvin's setting a target of 5000 photos.

we shall see see see!

anyone who's in need of makeup or anything you need from Taiwan please text me and transfer me the money.

i just got 1000 bucks poorer thanks to the jack ass COE so cant branja you all. :(

seriously EVERYTHING'S SKY ROCKETING!

3/4 room HDB in Singapore = condo/ terrace + car in Msia.

must scout for houses in Malaysia already.

TWELVE MORE DAYS!!!

you & me.

2010-03-29T01:14:00.005+08:00

i miss cooking and having breakfast with andre.

i miss his ai xin zao can-s!

i feel like marching into a bookstore to grab some recipe books, then head to NTUC to get the ingredients and whip up a good meal with him RIGHT NOW.

& lie in the sun and get ourselves burnt after filling our tummies.

xoxo.

approx 40 more days to freedom baby!

hang in there!

after this, we'll save some money and have a little getaway together. (:

a simple yet catchy little tune + smashingly smitten-ing voice of Olivia = good stuff.

the lyrics are written by Olivia who was inspired by the movie, UP!

and for some real life feel of the animation...

he must be costing his parents a bomb!

Olivia wrote this because she was moved by the simple love that the old man shared with his wife.

some people yearn for super drama (must roller coaster, then love until want to die already) kind of romance.

truth is after going through all the drama, simplicity is bliss.

let the world be your playground, along with the dart!

2010-03-24T01:08:00.005+08:00

"Stand facing a map of the world.

Throw a dart at it to decide on your next holiday destination."

- Deborah (CLEO)

sweeeeeeeeeet!

that's totally my cup of tea; i've always loved spontaneity and the excitement of exploring new places and doing something new makes me feel alive more than anything.

BUT the irritating money issue came popping into my mind and bursting the bubble.

no fear, i WILL work hard towards maintaining that as a annual goal. :D

newfound resolution!

CLEO's a dear, it brings so much inspiration and eye candies to me.

i love settling down with it, munching a bag of chips as i pour through it every mid month.

i got curious about Yvan Rodic's blog and hollyshit! there's tons of good stuffs inside!

totally dig how the black biker jacket stood out against the blue sky.
someone teleport me to paris PLEASE!
or maybe i should just sharpen my dart throwing skills.

ive always been secretly in love with leggings but i just cant seems to carry it off well thanks to my perky butt and the lack of an appropriate length top.

find it a major yuck to see girls strutting around with their leggings, short tops AND lumpy/fatty butts.

BUT THE ABOVE PICTURE IS LOVE!
blazer with shirt , wet look leggings and killer heels, just the very style that i like. <3

chunk chunk.

me love. :D

yellow's not my colour but i love the combination and how the yellow jacket brought life to the outfit.

sequin-ed jacket and letter-ed belt.
\m/

my favourite of the lot.

i can't take my eyes off the head band.

T for Trouble.

2010-03-23T12:32:00.003+08:00

for the benefit of non-Chinese readers (HELLO!), the headline reads:

" 330 lbs lady scared her husband to death (literally) when she wore a T-back underwear"

for those who suck at maths like i do,

330 lbs = 149.69 kg according to this.

the poor lady must be really down now.

she's even suspected of intentionally murdering her husband.

i hope that it is just a load of bull, if not those assassin companies should start hiring fat ladies. proven effective.

7 + 1 ; 8.

2010-03-23T01:48:00.003+08:00

another smart and problematic kid added to my portfolio.

nearly got owned by his acting skills.

but i actually do love the challenge of teaching problematic kids.

you have to think 360 and find means and ways to make learning fun for them, learn to control your temper, and use the right tone and words to get the things that you want done.

the reward and punishment/ damage and repair tactic is a "never fail" tactic to manage kids.

i sometimes find myself shopping for presents for my tuition kids as opposed to shopping for presents for andre, and i forsee myself buying a lot cutesy stuffs or my 8 tuitees when i go taiwan.

im exceptionally touched when i meet parents who are not grade conscious; all they ever want from their kid is for them to experience the joy of learning.

i want to be such a teacher and mother too. (:

ive been thinking a lot these days, struggling with the money vs interest decision.

money is not everything, but i really need to get away from all these unnecessary unhappiness inflicted by my mom.

gonna be a full fledged financial planner in may/june, and i hope that it is the answer to my much needed freedom.

honestly nervous about how it's gonna work out but i'm gonna throw all those worries at the back of my head and enjoy april first. :D

hello taiwan!

2010-03-22T15:10:00.004+08:00

i miss the awesomeness of the jj gang.

everyone's busy with their own lives and have their own things that they need to do.

as we grow older and older, meetups are gonna be even more rare with commitments such as career and family weighing upon us.

so must treasure all the times that you get to spend with the people you love! (:

heading back to TAIWAN again this April with another power packed (pp) gang- shups, kent and alvin! :D

just the thought of meeting up for taiwan briefing this Sunday is making me tingle with excitement!

still remember the last time we got together at essential brews was HILARIOUS TO THE MAX!

shi lin ji pa!
ru rou fan!

+ ah zhong mian xian
+ crepe egg roll

+ boots

+ sneakers

oooooooooooooo i'm gonna have you all!

hopefully the shopping doesnt disappoint me this time round.

but even if it does, im sure shups, alvin and kent will still make this trip an enjoyable and memorable one! :D

are you battling with yourself?

2010-03-21T14:53:00.005+08:00

in many ways, im glad im not xiaxue.

dont get me wrong, i do kinda like her.
i love reading her blog and her bitchy-ness, but blogging as a career/job is soooo taxing and demanding to a IT idiot + active + lazy person like me.

why so?

no makeup = no go out + no photo

for girls who happily slap on gao gao (very thick) makeup to look pretty, do you have any idea what you're really doing to your skin?

if you follow xiaxue's blog, how many blue moons must you count before you are able to see a no make-up photo?

(yea, i know one just appeared recently)

make up gao gao already STILL need to photoshop to look better.

like i say, i suck at IT and i'm definitely not a fan of such big scale hassle.

speaking of xiaxue, i MUST applaud Cannon for their marketing efforts.

precisely because im an IT idiot, specs and all dont make sense to me and i dont bother.

what i need is something that i can see and feel and the photos at xiaxue's blog are frigging SOLID.

the ad that they put up at Shaw's underpass also stole my eyeballs.

the look and feel of it, and the concept of using ordinary consumers like you and i to model for the ad increases the credibility of Cannon.

s90 you're MINE for the next IT fair!

the fear of being rejected, feeling inferior to face the world without the help of your tools which you've grown so dependent on, bla bla bla.........

there are some things only we ladies know.

but ONE MONTH WITHOUT REMOVING MAKE UP COS YOU DIDNT WANT YOUR BOYFRIEND TO SEE HOW YOU LOOKED LIKE BARE FACED?!

i feel really sad and painful for her.

for guys who go, "woah this girl (with make up) very chio!"

this is for you.

i feel bad saying this, but no.5 looks REALLY different. =/

this installment is quite mild actually, cos the girls are not that bad looking by nature.

(ive seen an ep when the difference was even MORE drastic but i couldn't find the clip.)

so ladies! believe in yourself!
if you had to land yourself a guy, land yourself one who loves you bare faced. (:
you cant act nor hide forever.

liberated my skin of chemicals and headed down to town with my not very town-ish attire (tights and hockey jersey), and had quality me-time chilling at mcafe with the heavenly double chocolate frappe, watching bleach, and sweating it out at true yoga yesterday.

piang! this poster is spot on.
ive lost count of how many times i went easy on myself when it comes to exercising.

fitness IS a battle.
Mind over body.

had an awesome bodycombat session.

i love Issey's classes not because of his muscles but because of the way he empowers us with his passion to rope us in on what he believes in and enjoys.

some of our basic moves in bodycombat class.

chen weije hereby declares to commit to battling fitness.

PUNCH! PUNCH! HA!

13.

2010-03-19T23:33:00.007+08:00

anyway a random thingy:

i was told that when your tongue looks zig zaggd,

it means that your health is screaming out for you to take good care of it before it turns nasty.

shito.

ive been over indulging in unhealthy bedtimes (at 4/5 am and waking at 12/1pm) ever since i got hooked onto bleach 13 days ago.
~~i.e. ive been spoiling my health for 13 days.~~

i even lug my laptop out to watch bleach in between work and yoga lessons!

there was once i even stayed at mac till 4am to watch bleach, and i dont sleep till 4am these days because ive been chiong-ing bleach.

and i always ATNO (all talk no action) for all my morning yoga lessons.

poor andre keeps waking up to morning call me whenever i tell him i wanna go for yoga lessons and always end up hearing my half awake voice saying i wanna zzz and not going for yoga anymore due to my 4am nights.

geez, thanks baby!

i am that addicted, seriously.

i am even writing this while i wait for the video to load!

whatever is so nice about it?

dont wanna spoil anything and it's too much for me to explain.
watch it and you'd know!

i nearly cried at one of the eps.

ichigo! one of my favourite characters. :D

i realise i have this thing for crazy, sincere and reckless characters.

cartoonized version of some of the characters in bleach.

a scene from the anime, where the 5 of them dressed up as students to look up ichigo in school.

i like the way they did the "suspension" thingy by only playing their voices, super hilarious.
" uniforms are weapons."

i like the short boy with silver whitish hair!

managed to learn a few words of jap after all these watching, and it made me feel like asking my cousin-in-law to teach me jap.

not surprisingly, my tongue is a little zig zag now due to my over indulgence. :(

or maybe i would say it's a luxury.

i never had time for such stuff when i was schooling and working part time or working full time.

honestly, i love my current lifestyle now.

waking up as and when i like, chasing anime and shows, teaching kids and watching them grow, spending time with andre and my friends, and going for yoga and bodycombat lessons as and when i like.

such things wont be coming by easy when i start uni and/or commit myself to a 9-5 (and beyond) job.

i still have a list of things that i wanna do before i settle and lose my freedom to do so.

i wanna dye my hair purple,and travel around to chill, immerse myself in others' cultures, breathe their air, play with snow, eat fried cockroaches, etc.

but first, i need to get a grip on myself and be more self disciplined.

earlier bedtimes, and more exercises, yoga classes, and regular meals!

2010. \m/

the last bargaining chip.

2010-03-06T01:38:00.008+08:00

therapeutic is the last word that i would have used to describe our coaching sessions with Elvin.

simple.
SINCE WHEN IS WORK THERAPEUTIC?!
but it surprisingly is!

Elvin shared with us a lot of stories and two of them left a very deep impression on me.

#1- dont be greedy and anyhow jiat, later lao sai worse.
underlying angmoh meaning: sales is always about quality, not quantity.

i walked into a random saloon at Clementi and asked for a fringe cut.
the auntie who attended to me had the mannerisms and looks of a cleaner but i was rushing for time and went ahead with the cut even when danger bells were ringing within me.

true enough, she screwed by my fringe, earned my $5 but got herself bad karma and bad reputation.
is it really worth it for that $5?

#2- never lose the last bargaining chip

scriptwriters never fail to make showhand" the climax of gambling shows.
similarly in life, dont be afraid to step out of your comfort zone and stand up for yourself.

let those who are taking advantage of you/treating you like 3 year olds know that you're prepared to give it all up if they overstep your line, just like what the villagers did to the boy who cried wolf.

i dont blame the villagers.
how are they supposed to know that he was not lying when he had been doing so all those while?

i want to read this story to yikai!
my mom's still taking care of him and he just started school at the PAP under my block.
the naughty boy drops by my house at 8am in the morning and has been climbing onto my bed to wake me up these days.
H-E-L-P!

hey march, please be kinder than feb.

2010-03-06T00:10:00.004+08:00

im getting really excited at the thought of making lunch for andre tomorrow.
:D

as he reads this little space of mine, i shall not share what i have in mind for him at the moment.
ive always loved cooking, just not given a chance to do so at home.
his mom, on the other hand, is super nice and allows us to cook all we want and even participates in our cooking session sometimes.

so much has happened in the space of a week.
heart wrenching stories, tramautising events and defining moments.

learning point:
i promise myself that i will be a friend to my sons and daughters in the future.
i dont want them to go through ANY uneccessary pain to get what they want or need.
by uneccessarry i meant that i will never want them to take a path which leaves scars so bad that it's a question mark as to whether time can really heal the wounds within.

working part time while studying to earn extra pocket money is fine.
in fact i'd love having them to do so to gain exposure to the society.

simin and i were chatting causually and she asked how many kids i wanted to have in the future.
"FOUR!"
stunned, she said, "you mean you had actually given thought to it already?"
"yea, but it was just recently. at my grandma's funeral, i got to see how big my family is and i want to have a big family in the future too. dont like the idea of having one poor kid to play with him/herself."

the weather's really bad these days.
i love the sun but i hate the heat, especially on days where i have back to back tuitions with half hour breaks to fly from A to B to C.
plus having to deal with pervertic guys who love upskirting girls or shamelessly looking at your chest even when you are glaring at them.

very sick and tired of dealing with these people.
i wanna a car. :(

for those who do not know, sggirls.com has people like LEGSHUNTER who goes around Singapore taking pictures of girls without them knowing.

it can be as innocent as going to the supermarket in a racer and shorts, and bending over to choose sushis to fill your tummy.
our dear legshunter sees you, gets turned on and decides to shoot you with his HANDPHONE, framing your butt, all the way down to your legs and then posting it online for ALL to share.

i think my hubby gonna have to work real hard.
4 kids, a doggy and a car (or maybe 2).
HO SEH AH!

Valentine's Day 2010.

2010-03-03T12:36:00.017+08:00

andre totally melted my heart this valentine's.

we had a belated celebration due to my grandma's passing,

and spent it in a simple and sweet manner doing our favourite things together.

caught dear john which was a little slow for my liking,
but nonetheless touching on the whole.

the lights were so pretty!
it'd be a crime not to include our pretty and handsome faces with it. :p

the bouquet that melted my heart.
ive never felt so honoured, pampered and loved before.

"oh my god. did you do all these yourself?!"
"yea"
"how did you know how to wrap the bouquet? (even I, as a girl, do not know)"
" i've bought roses for you so many times that i agar agar know how to wrap already"
"AWWWWW"

& you can tell that i look really happy from this photo because you can hardly see my eyes.
(:

traaaaahhh dahhhh!
the making of the bouquet
(pictures stolen from andre's fb)

coloured paper from popular (i think).
he bought the EXACT shade of blue that i love!

rose #n; evidence of not listening in lecture. :p

the very sweet boy did not cease to practise folding the roses
even after i threw tantrums at him.
im so sorry baby.
my bad.

the actual ones, after a few rounds of practices.
i love the blue ones!

more materials for the bouquet; fake leaves, stalks, wrappers and decorations.

#1- rose stalks

#2 bouquet!

#3- wrapped with the perfect combination of my fav shade of blue, red, pink and white!

next up:
pet shop, dog watching.

we both fell in love with this really cute and energetic puppy but didnt manage to snap any pictures cos the guy was watching and the doggie was too bouncy.

they had this see through grooming room where the doggies are treated like kings and queens.
would love to be able to pamper my doggie like this the next time.

& tummy filling @ MODESTO's
thanks to SAF, we used to dine at restaurants once in a while when we were dating.
but with SAF out of the way now, ~~govt no feed him already~~ we hardly dine at restaurants anymore.

made an exception last sat since it was a special occassion & we had the $48 bucks nett set meal which consisted of a starter, 2 mains and a dessert.

andre picked up the tab despite being as poor as me because he knew i was super stressed out from the lack of income.
thank you baby.

bread with olive and some sort of alcohol to get us started for our meal.

the salad looked really good when it was served and tasted equally good.

& the portion's rather huge.

andre cant wait to lay his hands on it already!

WOW big pizza~

carbonara; andre's all time favourite pasta.
but this was only so-so.

the shrimp pizza is one of the best pizza ive had so far.
a welcoming change from the usual hawaiian pizzas that i eat, and also the crust is just right- cripsy and not too thin.

andre loved this too.

the only drawback is that the pizza's a little oily.
but since when yummy food's healthy?!
LOOK AT THE SHRIMPS!
THERE'S ENDLESS OF THEM IN THE PIZZA!

told andre to take this down because it is super rare to be seeing me using fork and knife to eat.
im a disaster at cutting myfood up with untensils.

we had the CENTER seat and when i looked around me, EVERYONE in the restaurant was eatng with their fork and knives so i felt pressurised to be girly too.

i think the cleaner heaved a sigh of relief when i gave up and converted back to my ungirly ways.

because the portions were so generous, we were pretty full by the time dessert came.

jiggly cream pudding with sugar syrup, walnuts, berries and strawberries.
3.5/5.

the pudding tasted good on the first try but tasted bland subsequently, and needed to be consumed together with the sugar syrup.

love's in the air.
love's on the plate.

love is spending time with you.

super yummy pizza, friendly and efficent service.
defintely going back again!

simple joys.

2010-02-27T21:49:00.008+08:00

#1- waking up to mac's deluxe breakfast,
hand delivered by the person you love.

S-H-I-O-K~!

just out of bed, and pampered with a scrumptious breakfast.

yikai came to join us and andre and i spent the rest of the morning playing hide and seek with him at my house.

poor andre has very limited hiding space due to his height & HE SOLD ME OUT TO YIKAI!

bahhh!

else i could have happily hid under the table the whole day without having to entertain him.

haha just kidding.

i love my little nephew!

#2- ALDO SALE! 50% off PLUS buy one get one free!

this is heaven.

got myslelf a necklace, two bracelets and a bag for $42.
im still eyeing TWO more bags. :/

#3- catching up over supper with a long lost friend

ive never felt so much pain for a friend before.
i'm deeply touched by what he had done for love,
and i admire him for it.

i pray that lao tian ye is gonna be kind to him this time round.

#4- XJT!!!

13th march 13th march 13th march!
ive been telling andre that i wanna go to xjt's concert ever since last month and all thanks to alvin who bought tickets for the 7 of us, MY DREAM GOT REALISED!

woooooo!!!!! :D

lee xinyi, loh chuan min, loh chuan hui, chong jie ning, alvin teh, andre chang.
you guys better prepare ear plugs because im gonna scream and sing like a mad 14 year old fan girl.
you are warned!

i want this so bad.

2010-02-21T14:17:00.003+08:00

even when the arrow is not targetted at me, i hate it.
i hate how everything is so negative and done in a commando style.
it gets on my nerves when simple things can't be left as just simple things; such as respecting one's style of doing simple things like boiling water, doing laundry, etc.

i want to change how things are now.
i want it so bad.

ive heard of undertable ways of filling pockets, and climbing to success.
it sure is easy, but it sure is degrading as well.

i have my own hands, my own legs and brains to depend on.
might not be of bill gate's quality but i'm happy with them.

ive finally found a job that ive been looking for all these while; the right mix of motivation and the it's exactly the type of job that fits my personality.
im excited and im scared, because the response from the people around me hasn't been encouraging.

i just need a little support.

feb, the (commercial) month of love.

2010-02-20T22:27:00.005+08:00

due to the buddhist customaries*, i didnt get to celebrate valentine's day with andre on 14 feb.

* the buddhists believe that when you are involved in a funeral, it is best to stay at home and not go to other people's house. especially during the chinese new year period, it is best to avoid meeting others.

well as long as you treasure each other, everyday is valentine's day!
(:

a photo from some time back in oct 09.
i love the emotions captured in this photo. (:

& i am very happy here because he cooked me mee goreng with cheese omelette- my fav dish of his!

6th feb 2010.
advanced weirdos vday exchange @ Swensens ION.

ICE CREAM BUFFET!
there were:

chocolate foundue,
ENDLESS ICE CREAM OF MANY MANY FLAVOURS,
waffles ice creams,
a "cold rock" station to mix and match your ice cream with cookies, oreo, M&Ms, mushmellow, etc etc.

all for $18.90++

yihan very sweetly got suanhwee winne the pooh polaroides for the exchange and we AUTO went into the camwhore mode.

4 of us- jie ning not looking very happy with suanhwee's photography skills. :P
& yihan feeling unwell :(

im glad the air was cleared up and thanks for making it down to meet us girl. (:

i ordered chicken salad for us to share and it's SOOO HUGE!

FOOD = very happy.

looking forward to the next gathering with the girls and also, the spontaneous belated vday that im having with andre. :D

~~im supposed to be the brains behind this year's vday but ive got no ideas and $$$ yet.~~

more updates on love recieved during the cny period when i get the photos.

time for teeveee!

blood ties.

2010-02-14T16:04:00.003+08:00

at depot heights
on the day that grandma was due to be cremated,we walked in a big group on the road with only our socks on.
yikai saw my dad and his brothers walking behind the funeral van and placing their hands on it, got curious and asked, " why is gong gong (my dad) pushing the car?"

no one wanted to answer him because they didnt know what to say.
i held his hand gentlely and said, "because we want to walk with great grandma for the last time".

he widened his eyes, dropped his usually loud voice to a whisper and said," but great grandma is dead".

i looked at him, tried to control the emotions that were stirring within me, and said, "that is why we want to accompany her for the last time".

at the crematorium
i was walking around and holding back my tears but when the coffin went behind the doors and into the fire, i couldnt hold them back any longer.

ive always thought that i dont tear easily, but i came to realise that i was wrong about myself when my grandma was cremated on 11 feb 2010.
其实一直以来我的哭点很低.
因为小时候 mother 很凶, 爱打人, 所以叛逆的我ba3自己训练de2很坚强, 不让自己哭.
(pardon the hanyupinyin, i couldnt find those words that i want on translator)

a few hours later, all that was left from the fire was her bones and ashes.
one by one, we picked up the bones (from the container) and placed it into the the urn with our own hands.
some had colours, some were golden.
the chinese believe that if you were a kind person who did good deeds, you will leave behind colourful bones after being cremated.
golden coloured ones simply meant that the tonics that you consumed worked its way into your system and your bones.

at the temple 6 days later
yikai was unusally obedient and even stuck his body to the floor to kow-tow to my grandma.
we were all amused by how sensible he grew to be.

scrapped my plans to hunt down cheap bargains at the home club flea and choose to tag along with my brother and became yikai's nanny for the day instead.
we went shopping at ikea, played with many many things and attended to his ten thousand whys.

babysitting a kid is no joke, even at my young and able age of 21.
but i'd still choose to entertain the little king and spend quality time with my brother and his family anytime.
there are some things money just cant buy.
blood ties is one of them.

meet the FAMILY.

2010-02-10T02:24:00.005+08:00

today was meet the fockers minus the drama for my dear boy.

he met BOTH my extended family (father's and mother's) in the most unexpected way at my grandma's funeral today.
the very sweet boy came all the way down from his ulu hall to pay respects to my grandmother, accompanied me and folded "paper gold bars" for my grandma with me.

**commercial break**
i just love how he always tries his best to be there for me. (:
he knew i love spending quality time together, and always squeezes time to do things that i like with me no matter how tied up he is.

i reciprocate by picking up things that he likes ( e.g. ONE PIECE)
and FALLING DEEPER AND DEEPER FOR LUFFY :P

all clad up with a jacket on one fine HOT afternoon thanks to the pervy guys.
thank you for taking time out to send me to work baby. (:

not too happy that we couldnt get to spend more time together.
well, work calls!

we were squabbling over a silly matter and i refused to talk to him, and he went off and came back with this to surprise me and make peace. :D

**back from "commercial break"**
all the scanning eyes from my relatives were locked on him and us, making us feel overwhelmed.
one of my cousin was really nice to take the liberty to make him feel welcomed by introducing himself and explaining our family tree to him.

fyi, my dad has 9 siblings and so do my mom.
.e. i have a SUPER HUGE family and sometimes i dont even know who is who.

take for today, i just found out that i have a nephew who is a year older than me and winner of a certain man-hunt competition. and thank god andre didn't confuse my dad's twin (my uncle) with my dad though he agreed that they look terribly alike.

my cousins, on the other hand, had interesting stories that aint good for the public's eyes.

gotta turn in already.
goodnight!

R.I.P Grandma.

2010-02-09T01:36:00.004+08:00

she left us peacefully this afternoon at the age of 92.
still, the sudden impact of the news caught me off guard and i broke down over the phone.

i cried because i was worried that it would break my dad's heart as he is closest to my grandma among his 10 siblings.
i cried because i realised that i didn't treasure her when she was alive; i always had reasons like spending time with friends, work, and many others.

the one of the few times that i saw her was when her hands was swollen till 3 times the size of mine due to water rentention.
she was also not allowed to take more than 750ml of water per day and we had to harden our hearts to say no to her pleas of wanting more water as her throat was feeling dry.

rushed down to see my grandma the last time before they send her off for her makeup but i didnt make it.

my dad later told us at the funeral that when he visited her a few days back, her throat was so dry that she couldn't talk and all she could do was to give my dad a weak smile but i didnt know about this incident.

we got to pay our last respects to her at our uncle's void deck before they put her inside the coffin and changed her clothes for her.
she looked really peaceful; no more sufferings, no more tubes and pipes, surgeries and illnesses to handle.
R.I.P grandma.

losing my grandma made me reflect on how much i had been giving to my family.
i had a heart to heart talk with my aunt a week back, who told me of how my mom would call her to ask about me whenever we quarrelled.

i know my mom loves me and i hate this love-hate relationship that we have with each other.
i never fail to pray for us to be able to communicate well whenever im at ANY temple.
i dont want to be regretting not showing her enough that i love her when that day arrives.

i dont want to.

我要的2010.

2010-02-06T01:02:00.002+08:00

very wols i know, when there are already people posting up their resolutions for 2010 in 2009.

time is never wasted when it is utilised; i used the first month of 2010 to reflect on what i've did, asked myself if i liked it and if i'd want to continue the way things are or discipline myself to change.

#1- let Mr M (picture below) and my piggy bank become best friends.

i forgot when was the last time my piggy bank smiled so brightly.

gee, that was pretty lame but i couldn't resist posting up that army guy:P

im sick and tired of the feeling of having $1.00 staring back at me at an ATM and going hungry till payday comes.
fyi, i have a POSB savings AND a UOB TX account.
my POSB is supposed to be my "spending" account while my UOB is supposed to be my "savings' account.
but im such a sucker for pretty clothes ( especially online shopping!) that BOTH accounts became my spending account.
:(

this is defintely one of the areas that i want to change about myself.

QUESTION:
how?

ANSWER:
by planning my $$$ , setting visible goals ,
and getting external instruments to help myself save.

gonna purchase a savings plan from prudential whereby i have to commit to it for a number of years and CANNOT take out part of the money at all.

this one no joke ah, not like my PERSONAL accounts where i am my own boss.
with the help of a 3rd party, i confirm will have to force myself to save liao.
best of all, there's a 3% interest rate compared to the pathetic 1% interest (or less) from banks!

two birds one stone! :D

dear shopoholics, if you are feeling (as) helpless (as me) with yourself over your spendings and wishes to save, drop me a text or email at cwj_friends@hotmail.com for the above mentioned prudential savings plan.
investors are welcomed too.

i got lobangs!
(:

#2- get my driving license!
if you've been to my facebook, you wouldnt have missed out on my encounter with the pervertic guys recently.
due to my work as a full time tutor, i travel on public transport 3-6 times a day.
transport very chor nvm, PERVERTS ARE RAMPANT!

im sick and tired of watching out for myself on trains and buses; being suspicious of a guy who points his camera at me.
I NEED A CAR! EVEN A CHERRY QQ I WILL BE HAPPY TOO! (:
anyway im quite confident that i'll buang my first car so no point getting a BMW.

but before that, i'll need my LICENSE.
setting aside 1.5k for this and applying for my FTT and PDL in March.
aiming to get the paper by Dec 2010.

#3- pamper myself with short trips and holidays
- heading for Taiwan with Alvin, Kent and Shups in April! :D (confirmed, tickets booked)
-Keeping my fingers crossed for the bangkok trip in August, and Bali with weirdos in July/August. (hopefully full attendance)
- Batam with Shih wen in Feb/March.

& work hard for Yokohama (Japan) in April 2011.

#4- Forgive the people that made me hurt simply because i still want them in my life. or rather, be able to find a reason to forgive them.

#5- Be there for the people who care for me and whom i care for.

#6- Indulge in the things that make me happy.
I remember attending the first dance lesson of my life with suanhwee at the beginning of 2010 and even though we danced like ducks, it made me smile from my heart still.

Though not on the priority list, i wanna learn singing and hip hop.
lobangs anyone?

facebook.

2010-02-05T02:51:00.003+08:00

im doing it to my poor bloggie again, disappearing and neglecting it whenever im busy.
sometimes i dont understand.
i have a 18 hour work week (compared to my suck-thumb-1.6k-crazy-50-60-hour-work-week just two months back) but i dont seem to have time for many many many many many things.

sigh, blame it on my possessive bed.
it doesnt want me to leave it. :(
if you're like me, click My bed is so possessive. Every morning it does not want me to leave...

although a little irritating, these facebook groups are rather cute at times too. (:

i joined another group which touched my heart with the depth of its simple words.
" Chen became a fan of Sometimes you forgive people simply because you still want them in ur life. "

i hope you are able to provide me with a reason to forgive you or stop myself from creating a barrier against you, because i really want us to be like how we were.

it takes two hands to clap.
im waiting, and im losing faith.

monday, un-blued.

2010-01-25T11:13:00.006+08:00

wow i think i found someone who lazes in bed more than i do.

and if i ever get to have THIS bed, i dont think i'll ever be on time for anything.

some wounds can never completely heal, but i feel better after all the TLC showered by Mr Andre Chang, my girls and buds.
thank you people.
(:

was woken up by the loveliest phone call and messages this morning.
full time tutoring has brought so much surprises, fulfillment and joy.

last friday, i stayed back to play with one of my tutee's toy poodle and had a really nice convo with her grandma who fed me with her super nice fuzhou noodles.
we even took turns to take pictures with the super cute poodle and bluetoothed each other the photos.

when i figure out how to get those photos from my phone onto the computer, that's when i'll melt your heart.
THE DOG IS REALLY SUPER CUTE!

a week ago, another parent gave me a small tin box as she felt really appreciative of me spending time and patiently guiding her daughter.
the same parent texted me this morning to ask if i would like pineapple tarts or loveletters for cny.
the thing is.. i like BOTH!
shiaks!

3am post for the 3am emo girl.

2010-01-25T03:26:00.003+08:00

ms lee xinyi:

silly girl, no worries about the party. did you forget that i am Chen Weijie? :p

i know how it feels to have so many "die die no choice" (read: studies) and/or precious things on your plate, and those "eh cannot cope already then take out XX from your plate la" do not help at all. it only makes you feel even more alone in this battle.

trust me, ive been through it and back then, my pillar of support was the one who aired his views about not being very supportive towards my commitments as he felt that my plate was overflowing.

in fact, ive been advising you to prioritise and perhaps sacrifice some stuffs too.
coem to think of it, im sorry for that for i know how lousy it feels to have people closest to you disapproving of what you hold strong in.

jia you for band! and i hope we have the chance to fight side by side for prudential too. (:

before i ciao, a quick reminder to self:

ms chen,
stop lazing in bed till 1pm evert morning and get your butt off the bed at 9am to:

- have breakfast, stop brunching
- head down to town for yoga lessons which you PAY $105 per month for!
- dye your hair red (gonna DIY using Liese's Cassis Berry. i hope it turns out reddish!)
- get bestie's 21st birthday card done ( man, im really ashamed about this. im sorry sorry simin!)
- get boyfriend's 1st year pressie done ( uh, another delayed "project". i m so sorry!)
- get down to blogging and turn those drafts into posts! e.g. resolutions for 2010.

entering s-o-s.

2010-01-18T03:05:00.004+08:00

i know i am going to regret not turning in at this hour when my "gimme gimme more" alarm rings 5 hours later.

as much as i want to sleep, my emotions wouldn't settle.

hell broke loose, again.
even when the girlfriend listens patiently to me, comforted me and provided me with advices, and when the boyfriend wipes away my tears and hugs me, there's nothing real nor solid to heal my wounds.

it only cuts deeper each time.

don't get me wrong though, i really appreciate you guys who are always tirelessly there for me when shit happens.
in fact, i dont know how i'll pull through without all of you.

i have no idea what i will turn into if this continues any longer.
or, to accurately put, i have no idea how much more time i have before i really really snap and/or turn into someone i don't want, but is forced to be.

only hope now is to pass my impending M5 and upcoming M9, let Elvin know of my targets and work hand in hand with him to help myself get out of these.

movies.

2010-01-15T01:40:00.008+08:00

managed to squeeze in two movies and a kbox session with my dearest boy, no. 1 and no.5 despite my busy schedule last week.

#1- Bodyguards and Assassins (4/5)

with DONNIE YEN (my new found ~~obession~~ eye candy) in the movie, what's there not to love?
it was also the first time that i saw Nicholas Tse being the "goody boy" in a movie.

beyond solid casting of 2 (out of 4) heavenly kings,
several golden horse award kings and no.1 beauty of hongkong plus tear jerking plot,
I DECLARE MYSELF BOUGHT.

hmmm looks like someone's not very happy with the arrangement though the rest had already squatted down to not draw attention to the.. difference.
gee, just kidding!

either the make up artists done a great job on LEON LAI, or im really slow.
i never realised who he was till the last scene when he died,
and they did a closeup of his face.

if you're as slow as me or you dont believe your eyes, let me assure you again the man in the above picture IS Leon Lai.

i asked andre who his favourite character was after we came out of the movie and he was unsure. my answer, to our surprise (yea i was surprised too), wasnt Donnie Yen.

my favourite character is the tall guy!
he had a small part in the movie but i loved his loyal, tough, implusive, yet gentle character.
the scene where he made a comeback despite his heavy injuries was really touching for me.

in a nutshell,
i loved the movie not just because i could oogle at Donnie Yen but because the plot bought me over with its meaningful and touching elements.
whenever i couldnt bear to see the scene happening, i squeezed andre's hands tight till it was over.
now you know why he is my favourite movie partner. :P
dont say i didn't warn you about watching movies with me!

#2- Sherlock Holmes (4/5)

summing it up, sherlock holmes is the simplied and wittier version of da vinci code.

i had a few good laughs and pretty much enjoyed the show with my boy, who agreed with me that Robert Downey Jr. pulls off such weirdo characters really well (think transformers).

i will love to see him act as other types of characters that such as a NORMAL and passionate teacher, a poor gardener, a stupid policeman, or some other different roles.

it also made me appreciate the beauty of chemistry even more, which kinda helps since im dating a chemical engineering student whom im really proud of for his impressive gpa in sem 1.

go go baby! (:

QLC.

2010-01-14T01:22:00.011+08:00

yawn~ 1.6k, 8pm-7pm everyday?
you can have it.
i'll save my claws and true power for better deals. (:
anyway, i prefer to sleep till 12 everyday and still be able to earn more than you.

It's been almost a year since ive graduated and im still not able to settle. I've had temp jobs as a waitress and telemarketer, and finally in July 2009 i moved on to what i thought i wanted and gritted my teeth through the next 5 months before deciding that i did not want to sharpen my claws and fight so pathetically hard for that $1.6k per month.

sounds familiar?
read on.

Quarter Life Crisis (QLC) occur shortly after a young person – usually an educated professional enters the "real world". After entering adult life and coming to terms with its responsibilities, some individuals find themselves experiencing career stagnation or extreme insecurity. The individual often realizes the real world is tougher, more competitive and less forgiving than they imagined. Furthermore, the qualifications they have spent so much time and money earning are not likely to prepare them for this disillusionment.

i have no idea what i want to do with my life right now except to take up whatever that brings in money and doesnt distort my values.
i do have a very blurish goal of owning a cafe selling simple pastries and/or cakes, coffee, tea and hot chocolate, and providing my customers a roof to get cosy under away from the hussle and buzzle of life and putting smiles on their faces.

most importantly, food never fails to put a smile on MY face! :D

i'd smile at the thought of this and then it'd fade away immediately when the OS in my head goes, "KA CHING KA CHING?!"

you know i wantcha.
be with me?

other than full time tutoring, ive been taking up some other part time jobs and side lines latey as im dying from the lack of interaction with people (the me-and-my-9-tutees-from-monday-to-sunday life is boring me out) , and i happened to meet people who are earning 20k per month and going into retirement at the age of 35.
perhaps many people envy them, but i dont for i came to realise that money really doesnt drop from the air.

even if you desire simplicity like i do, you gotta work hard for it.
a sad irony i know, but for people like myself who aint born with bronze/silver/golden spoons in our mouths, we dont have much choices.

but sometimes working your ass off doesnt work either.
you need to understand yourself before you jump into anything.

i wanted so badly to take the easy way out and apply for NIE and let the govt feed me but people who knew me well all told me to think twice about it simply because im someone who hates structure and gets bored easily ( as mentioned above).

and if you'd be kind enough to go through the results of a personality test that i did,
do drop me suggestions on where i can head. (:

What Should You Look for In a Job/Career that Matches You Best?

+ Look for a career path with the opportunity to undertake major personal challenges and which will reward you financially in proportion to your effort and your accomplishments. Taking on challenges for the sake of the challenge itself and for the recognition you may receive when you are successful may be a sufficient motivator in some cases.

+ You should try to find a job where there is a combination of being a team player as well as an opportunity to be independent as you would find it both interesting and profitable from time to time to exercise your own initiative.

+ Look for employment that provides you with lots of people contact on a daily basis. A job with a great deal of person to person interaction and public relations opportunities would be ideal for you.

+ Look for employment that has a limited amount of analytical, technical and discovery learning to it. There are other challenges and rewards in the work environment which are more appealing to you. When you discover these, target them as ideal job requirements/opportunities.

What Should You Avoid in Jobs/Careers that Don't Match You?

- Avoid jobs which treat everyone the same, regardless of how much effort they put in or how much they achieve. Non-challenging or repetitious jobs are probably not going to make use of your powerful achievement potential.

- You should avoid a position in which you will always be a minor or relatively unimportant member of a work group. Avoid positions in which the job structure is totally and rigorously controlling of the job holders.

- You should avoid employment that would isolate you from people. A job that lacks social interaction would not be adequately stimulating and rewarding to you.

- Avoid jobs that are particularly detail oriented. Jobs that require you to quickly learn and apply new technologies or vast amounts of new information won't be particularly satisfying.

life, in pictures (iv)

2010-01-05T23:24:00.008+08:00

meetups and good food continued.

gosh, im so in love with this SEPHORA PALETTE!
thank you shih ying! (:

& when my palette from myclassycloset arrives, i'll have an overdose of eyeshadows and blushes to play with.
well, didnt you know? makeup shoes bags and clothes are NEVER enough for a girl.

met up with shih ying for a quick lunch last sunday and it was nice catching up with her.
man, how i envy her US schooling life!

xmas exchange with the usual 4.
@ parco bugis (V8) and Mr. punch winebar (toy museum, bugis)

lovely xmas tree by Soo Kee jewellery.

entertained ourselves with cheap thrill and ex-favourite pastime- NEOPRINT!

some things never change, and im glad for that. (:

FOOD TIME!
it's V8 for the day.

the pasta that LOOKED like it had a lot of pasta but in actual fact, only had a lot of sauce.

cat and sh had the same thing- ham and mushroom pasta.

jiening's mushroom burger.
4/5!

i ordered some healthy wrap and it's not nice at all :(

2/5

verdict:
please stick to pastas o9r their fried rice when you go v8.
NEVER try their baked rice or their wraps.

and it was off to the much anticipated Mr Punch @ Toy Museum!

we dig the ambience.

best of it all, the night view at the balcony ( smoking area) is really pretty.

esplanade on the left, high rise buildings on the right.

photo of the day:

yihan, please wear this out more often!

you look good in it, trust us (:

life, in pics (iii)

2010-01-05T22:50:00.017+08:00

tian mi mi with andre (:

xmas

@ bishan and j8.

even the nastiest cough/sore throat/flu isnt keeping me away from my favourite Lays!
besides it's cucumber flavour, cooling and surprisingly nice.
i swore i gluped down plenty of water after that.
~~did i?~~

we caught the much raved AVATAR at j8 and i feel that it was just so-so imo, though i dont deny that i was amazed by the digital stuffs that went on.

went for my favourite frog leg porridge after dinner as i was sick and couldnt eat much heaty food.
you did not see the Lays earlier.
i reapeat, you did not.

1st year celebration

itenary:

1. visit to the doctor's ( finally decided to get my cough/flu/sore throt treated)

2. picnic and kite flying at marina barrage

3. candlelight dinner at andre's

porridge (again) for brunch.

i came to realise that im that type who has a soft spot for roses/ recieving roses.
so andre got me my favourite blue and red roses for our 1st year anni.

awwww~

muack!

colourful kite.

i like! (:

the kite finally flew high up into the air after much running around and i was really overjoyed.
we both love this photo cos my expression's priceless.

muddy and happy feets (:

we got hungry from all the running about and tata! LUNCH TIME!

handpicked mangoes, tomatoes, blueberries, crabstick and potato diced, mashed and preaped solely by Chef Chang.

this is good stuff.

i insist this looks like a crab.

healthy and yummy:D

the full meal.

clumsy as usual.

resilent as usual.

my obession for jump shots apparently didnt fade off ( i dont think it's gonna fade off anytime soon) and i made andre play along with me.

oh dear, he's destroying the flyer.

and now he's stepping on people and buildings.
tsk tsk.

can never jump as high as him but still i love feeling the air running through my hair and brushing through my body when i jump.

soft spot no. 2 & 3 : straw bags and big green grass patches.
i love space (:

coming up next: dinner.

he kept me in suspense and told me that we are going to a restaurant for dinner but gave himself away when he told me i didnt need heels and when mok kept calling.

i knew something was going on!

mok turned out to be helping andre with our dinner stuffs.
thank you mok! (:
the full spread.
pasta, red wine, mushroom soup, bubble tea.

andre got it specially for our 1st year cos ~~im a alcoholic~~ he knows that i love red wine.

unfortunately, i was sick and the red wine was too dry for my throat.

so he got mok to get me my fav pudding bubble tea (the lesser of the two evil).

his mom actually helped him to light up the candles before getting out of the house and leaving it to us.
i feel so touched.

if you know me well, you should know that my life's full of ~~bimbotic~~ classic moments.

i was drinking bubble tea and thinking, "why does my wine taste like bubble tea?"

thank you for the past 365 days my dear.
you've become my pillar of support and the one i turn to whenever im happy, sad, confused, troubled, pissed, etc.

in these 365 days, you made me feel deeper and deeper for you with your sincere efforts to make things work between us.
i treasure every moment that we had spent together; even the tears which, ironically, drew us closer.
please remind me when im being wilful or unreasonable, and i wanna pluck your eyebrows for you till they turn white.

p/s: all the photos in this entry are taken with his samsung jet without any editing. he's starting to make me wanna change phone!

life, in pics (ii)

2010-01-05T22:45:00.015+08:00

birthdays- 21st and 22nds.

Suan Hwee's 22nd
steamboat @ sh's.

we met up and went to the self deco cake place at jp to make a cake for no.1 behind her back.
the place is pretty cool actually.
pay about $12 and they give you the creamers and a pack of flower looking thingy for you to D.I.Y your own cake.

i saw my cousin's photo of him and his gf personalising their cake together and i thought it was really sweet. (:

"ding dong"
door opens.
"happy birthday to you~~~"

complete 5.

jiening's draft for suanhwee's card.

the final product.
sexxxaayyyyy~

us posing with the colours and style representative of us, & we had messages written for our dearest birthday girl at the back of each piece of clothing.
green for cat,
purple for yihan,
orange for sh,

pink for me,
blue for jiening (cos she ran out of yellow)

STEAMBOAT TIME!

and more food.

we had so much food that we could hardly move.
i hope i did not put back any part of the 5kg that i lost over the past month.

stress is indeed my most efficent "slimming pill".

kexin's advanced 22nd
@ essential brews, holland V.

my failed yoga pose which make kexin lash out at me, "you didnt go for lessons is it?!"

hahaha too busy la.

yummy matcha cake for canelle.

i love the lighting of this photo.

i wanna your canon DSLR too kent!

complementary and yummy apple crumble.
too bad my throat, flu and cough was bad, couldnt get to enjoy much of it.

never had much of a thing for cream based pasta, but since i was terribly sick (i know you cant tell from the picture) i had not much of a choice. :(

the only saving grace was that the food was quite yummy.

the laugh until want to peng photoshoot take 1.

take 2.

(inside joke)alvin the crasher no. 1 was "fired" immediately after this shot.

xinyi, the crasher no. 2.

POLAROIDS!!! I TOTALLY DIG THEM!!

thanks for the really really really entertaining night people, im sorry we had to leave early.

i was super unwell and they couldnt bear to see me coughing my lungs out.

xinyi's 21st
@ coffee nations, bugis.

the super pro hokkien gua singers.

heh, if you find this dress familiar YES i kept a piece of the tri bandage dress from oohsewsassy for myself.

please pardon me for gushing about this but it's really lovely! :D

hope you enjoyed yourself my dearest girl.

it's heartwarming to find someone who loves you for who you are.

thanks for being the one and you know i love you too. (:

my life wouldnt be as colourful without you, i swear.

AND YOU ARE FINALLY 21!

life, in pictures (i)

2010-01-05T22:20:00.012+08:00

dragon boating, great company, new friends and good food.

ooooohhhh how i miss being out in the sun!

thank you all for turning up and sharing these wonderful times together under the sun. (:

oh, anyone wanna do leisure dragon boat but doesnt know where to start ?

mail/text/fb/call me.

ive got lobangs!

alrighty, enough of yakking.

pictures time!

sitting on the edge of the boat,
dipping our legs into the water and letting the water run through.
SHIOK-O-METER : 7.5/10

VIKING!
SHIOK-O-METER: out of range.

we had a SUPER FUN AND EXCITINGviking session in the middle of the reservoir!

p/s: photo was taken at normal angle, and not at titled angle.

so think boat rocking till the person sitting opp you starts to tower over you and water touching your butt and starts seeping into the boat,
AND a boat of bimbotic girls screaming and screaming and screaming and laughing.

while walking out to the bus stop, we came across the tp hockey pitch.

& i really missed the pitch and the trainings :(

then the hyperactive bug bit me and i got the girls to do jump shots with me!

unglam nevermind,
i love jump shots.
(:

& the guys started doing jumping shots too!

and they can jump super high :(

proof.
look at the dist andre jumped vs the distance that i covered.

us walking down the pitch, hand in hand (:

finally got to eat the super big watermelon at bedok market!

super happy:D

for just 5 bucks, u get to devour half the watermelon with logan, cocktail stuffs, watermelon juice and some other fruits that is enough for 2-3 people.

pretty good deal i must say.

headed to chinatown for korean bbq afterwhich.

considering that my voice is barely audible, the girls choose the chicken soup over the spicy based ones that they were craving for.

thanks sweets (:

refillable side dishes.
now you know why i look so happy even thoughj i was uber sick. :P

love this audi r8 to bits.

girls' fav shot #2: MRT reflections.

#1?

TOILET MIRRORS LO!

i totally dig this!

2010-01-05T12:42:00.003+08:00

i wanna a polaroid camera (and album) too!!

i miss you.

2009-12-20T02:42:00.000+08:00

3 more days!

where's the rainbow?

2009-12-19T12:31:00.006+08:00

my mind's in a whirl now.
im torn between what i need and what i want, but it's not like i can come up with a solution even if i spend my entire day thinking about it.
shall take things a step at a time.

perhaps it's because im the one who is involved in the midst of things, i never saw this coming.
i didnt mean for things to turn out this way.
it upsets me as much as it upsets you.
but im glad we got to talk about it, if not i would have been still living in my own world where i thought everything was fine.

just wanna all of these to blow over soon.
or it'd be best if i can have a little getaway with my boy at the island above. :D

一個被嘲笑的夢想，才有被實現的價值.
i saw this over at a friend's facebook and it really spoke to me.
coming from the service background, ive always pride myself in treating each individual as equals.
i wasnt very pleased when i found out that the organiser of a certain flea obviously thought little of us and left us hanging there without even replying our mail for application.
it's alright.
when the table turns, im gonna be the one who is grinning. (:

and it's not like their flea is the only one we can go to.

oohsewsassy is heading for the flea @ scape on the 20th, 4-11pm.

do pop by to support us! (:

on a lighter note,

ladies night with the lao jiaos was awesome!
listening to their stories about people, marriage and relationships is a refreshing experience for me.

to top it off, the drinks were solid (kudos to double O!) and the music was good (way better than the $58 bucks zoukout).

peektures from lydia soon!

beauty loots.

2009-12-15T01:20:00.007+08:00

ive always had this thing for eyeshadows since young, and it was love at first sight when i stumbled on http://myclassycloset-makeupmagic.blogspot.com/

♥Makeup Magic♥ 88 Original Eyeshadow Palette

oooh, they look like yummy candies don't they?

available in matt and shinny version & the best part is it only costs 27 SGD!

because im sucha sucker for eyeshadows and yummy colours,
i wanted so so so so so so much to get my hands on this till i saw something even better (IMO).

*drum rollllssssss*

INTRODUCING:
♥Makeup Magic♥ 78v2 Colors Makeup Palette [Version 2]

Contents: 60 eyeshadow colors (half matte, half shimmery), 12 highlighting and liner shades, 6 blusher shades, mirrored inside, with 2 foam tip eyeshadow applicators.

Measurements: 9"X6.5" (when closed)

if you think that the 78 version1 palette has all the golds liners that u wouldnt use, then perhaps this palette is more suitable for you. it has all the traditional black tones eyeliners, silver for highlighting, and white for tear ducts area. you can use the grey and black shades as eyeshadows as well to create a smokey look. both versions 1 & 2 have same eyeshadow colors (except the green tones), the difference lies in the blush and liner colors.

p/s: i dig green eyeshadows, so i got version2 instead. (:
best part, this is going for only 27SGD too!

♥Makeup Magic♥ 28 Neutral Eyeshadow Palette
( awww i want this, santa!)

- 28 neutral eyeshadow palette with defining colors comes with an assortment of shimmery and matte neutral tones.
- Measurements: 9"X6" (when closed)

- personal verdict: best for base colours!

♥Makeup Magic♥ 26 Shadow & Blush Combo Palette
( awww i want this, santa!)

- Superb colors in a mix of shimmer, pearl and matte!
- 26pc combo set contains colors in nearly nude, to browns, taupes, peaches, pinks, rose and rich deep plums.
- Eye shadows double as blushes.

- From deep and sexy to light and sassy colours ready for office day wear.
- Blushers can also be used for contouring to make your face look smaller!

* Contents: 21 eyeshadow colors (half matte, half shimmery) & 5 blusher shades
Measurements: 9"X6" (when closed)

Purple Valentine 16pc Brush Set
(awww i want this, santa!)

- Contains 16 brushes.
- Brush sticks are highly glossy purple.
- Made from high quality nylon, suitable for girls who are sensitive to real animal hair.
- Guaranteed soft and silky!

Magenta Clutch 15pc Brush Set
(awww i want this, santa!)

Elegant magenta colored clutch containing 15 makeup application brushes/tools, matte black wooden handles with glossy black coated ferrules.
Black velvet lining inside with protective brush flap.
Brush hairs are a combination of soft goat and sable.
Simply carry it out as a stylish-looking clutch! :)

GEL EYELINERS

got myself two eyeliners to go with my loot from myclassycloset as i have inner double eyelids and the pencil eyeliners ALWAYS smudges.

plus, there's a christmas promo going on, myclassycloset's giving free eyeliner brush when you purchase 2 eyeliners or more.
so i figured one more eyeliner wouldnt hurt. :p

i miss my VS lip gloss (juice berry) !
i hope andre's able to hunt it down when he gets back to our sunny island on the 22nd. :D

& my final "burn a hole in my pocket" purchase goes to

i love masks, they make me feel pampered when i put them on.
i love to do masks with the radio on and listen to the dj and beuatiful music while i chill on my queen sized bed. (:

since ive been sleeping at 3am and waking at 11 pm everyday, i figured i need some pampering for my skin.
i hope this much raved about mask is really as good as it looks though.

OH did i mention that i spent 267 SGD on 4 bikinis at Bella Kini recently?
someone please confiscate my atm card and my ibanking device!

twilight- new moon.

2009-12-14T12:05:00.006+08:00

i dont really like to admit this, but yes i AM one of those girls who are going gaga over the twilight craze.

i mean, how can you ~~resist~~ not like him?

cute guy with a hot body and equally hot temper, but tones it down totally for the girl he loves.
i surrender!

(applies to fictional characters only)

xinyi: please stop drooling and move on to read the rest of my entry! :P

the love triangle.

choice #1

no edward? it's okay jacob can stand in.

(#$(*$&%($&@$!

choice #2
(#($^@#$!^#@!
she is one hell of a lucky girl.
:(

ive been hearing much bad reviews from peers about the new moon but i TOTALLY enjoyed it!
i can never resist feeling for the plot and characters (JACOB!!) that has so much human elements/feelings inside.

now i feel like getting the books to read.
kino/borders voucher for my christmas present, anymone? :D

zoukout 09.

2009-12-14T00:41:00.000+08:00

12 dec did not turn out the way i thought it would be.

firstly, too many girls turned up for the SIA interview and we were asked to leave our forms behind and so that they can call us back to arrange for a interview with us again.
still, thanks for all the texts and encouragements people (:

secondly, as you can tell from our sad frowning faces, zoukout 09 was disappointing.
thank god for jeremy and xinyi, if not i would have threw my ticket off and went home.

huge thanks to jeremy who made his way down at the last minute (=$68 ticket), and looked after us with real care under andre's unstructions. :P

back to ZO.
the music was bad.
the whole area was divided into 4 sections- A, B, C, D.

C was so pathetically small that you might just walk past without knowing it.
trance , house and techo was going on forever while R & B only came in at 4 am.
what about people who only do R & B?
& even when R& B was on, it was not fantastic either.

the drinks were, AS USUAL, so diluted that redbull vodka tastes exactly the same as redbull itself.
not to mention that the tics are MORE EXPENSIVE this year.
well done, zouk (or whoever organized this).

or maybe to be fair the toilets were better, there ARE more things to see but ultimately this is a DANCE PARTY. there's no point in everything else if your core product aint good.

because xinyi and me are such busy people ( i plucked out my fake lashies and slept with my make up that i had on for my SIA interview and headed out for zoukout again after i woke up), we didnt get to fill our tummies much and jeremy got us fish burger and fries before we went in.

& it tastes surprisingly good. :D

you one mouth, i one mouth, friendship never parts!

i swear jeremy tip toed.
hor xinyi?:P

oh dear.
nic i never knew you and jeremy...

...are about the same height.

with jin, nic, xinyi and jeremy. (:

it was nice hanging around with nic and jin but trance and techo wasnt really our thing and we left them to find the r&b section,
which of cos wasnt in exsistance till 4am.

jeremy equipped us with lightsticks using the last purple note in his wallet.
guess who is who? (:

bastard.

no r & b = sit down and camwhore.

gosh, didnt realise my hair grew so long already!

the small eyes contest.
winner: jeremy.

arherm.

picture aint clear, but this is super cool!
the guy's surfing on a man made wave pool.

i wanna try this some day soon too!

R & B FINALLY!

"P-p-p-poker face, p-p-poker face"
"baby are you down down down down down?"
"Somebody call 911 Shawty fire burning on the dance floor"
"I don't want toStay another minuteI don't want youTo say a single wordHush Hush, Hush Hush"

GOOD MORNING!

dancing till daybreak with fav girlfriend and mr bodyguard.

vokswagen tattoo!

love from china.

2009-12-13T23:39:00.007+08:00

"Baby! hope your interview went well, enjoy ZO! take care of urself!rmb, no drinks from strangers, buy urself!i'll chip in!haha, i wished i could be there.enjoy!"

i wish you were there too.
hope ure enjoying yourself in china and getting fat there mr chang. (:

i miss you.

halloween shopping.

one fine day when i went over to NTU to find my dearest boy,
he brought me to the fast food place for dinner.

andre always laugh at me and says i have this sparkle in my eyes when i see food.

well, i guess i do. :P

& on the 11th month that we got together,
he cabbed down and surprised with a homecooked lunch (:

i was genuinely surprised because he told me that he would not be meeting me as he needed to study for his paper.

& the airhead me forgot that it was our 11th.

sunny side up,
FAVOURITE cheese omelette with cheese that melts in the mouth,
red peppers and fried potato!

pretty blue and red rose, my fav combi (:

& we spent our time chilling and admiring the pretty sky and clouds from my parent's room.

my dear,

during these days where we got to spend lesser time with each other due our schedules,

ive grew to realise how much you mean to me.

i appreciate how you've always put me above everything else, talking to me patiently and gently even though ive been throwing tantrums.

& even if you couldn't be there for me physically, you always had ways to made sure that i was well taken care of.

thank you, love.

girly times <3

2009-12-10T13:14:00.013+08:00

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY CHONG JIE NING! :D

p/s: dont kill me!

when simin was telling me about about how lance's friends "zhen" him for his 21st, a lightbulb
TING! within me.

so, i sat down with lao da to come up with a totally different birthday celebration for our youngest member who always gets to laugh at us for turning older first.

for the first part of it, we did it the usual style.

went to one of our favourite ice cream shops ( well, actually it's mine) and had our pudding ice cream by benten.

machiam some product shot.

but really, you guys should try it.

the pudding's texture is just right and it "diongs" when you touch it.

card that we made for jiening.

look closely to make out the 21 dares :P

#1- ask the manager to name a dish after you.

#2- take photos with 21 people on the street

1st blood!

our favourite participant!
he was no 13 (:

when we approach the little boy's father to ask for permission take photo with his kid, his wife was not there yet.

then we started chatting with his dad and told him how cute the boy was and out of the corner of my eye i saw this woman standing by the side and glaring at us.

so we thanked the dad and faster zhao.

tip of the day: when approaching a couple, ASK THE LADY for the favour if you're a lady. :P

break time.

DURIAN strudel.

thanks yihan for the treat and the kose masks! :D

i TOTALLY dig durians.

cmon,

you know you want me.

complete 5 (:

night time activity : truth @ ben & jerry (dempsey)

i love these heart to heart session with you girls.

night time activity 2 : pinata!

happy birthday no. 5, im pretty sure u enjoyed yourself! (:

stay pretty and wacky as always.

and thanks for the listening ear throughout these 8 years (8 years?shit!).

p/s: jiening only completed taking photos with 21 people in the night as we realised singaporeans are not so friendly afterall.

new found pasttime: YOGA!

i always thought that yoga was something relaxing and boy! i never knew i could be THAT wrong.

they made us do really challenging poses and we sweated like pigs in the 41 deg room.

and im not gonna fool around with the expert's advice again.

no food 2 hours before = no food 2 hours before.

was shopping with andre for our lunch ingredients and whipped up pasta, cheese omelette (my fav dish of his :D) and mayo crabstick just an hour before the lesson and i nearly wanted to puke when i was at birkim.

starbucks as a reward to ourselves. (:

in a nutshell,

life would never be this wonderful without you girls around.

i love you girls.

cheng's 21st @ noble house.

2009-12-09T21:20:00.017+08:00

geez time really flies.

i still recall cheng asking for our opinions on what to do for his 21st back in oct.

& now, his birthday and his birthday celebration is already OVER.

we had it the chinese wedding dinner style.

table no. 2.
like andre says, im always look very happy when i see food.

tong's moveable six packs!

after all the yummylicious food, cheng's mom had a surprise for him.

what can we say?
HIS MOM KNOWS HIM TOO WELL!

super love his mom.
note that she is sabo-ing cheng's dad to touch the bikini "babe"".
never seen such a warm and funny mom before.
the other time we went over to his place to drink, she even sat down to drink and play 21 points with us!
you're really blessed cheng!

hahaha now i understand where you inherited the wackyness from!

cheng: "sob, i dont want to cut her up!"

since he cant bear to do it himself, the restaurant people helped him with it.

thomas: "left or right?"

challenge posted: to lick off all the brown cream.

uncovering what's underneath..

" yuan lai shi ying du ren!"
HAHAHAHA!

and now, for the more NORMAL photos.

with the birthday boy!

with best friend no.1

with best friend no. 2 (upgraded!)

together!

BOYFRIEND! :D

the girls + birthday boy

the guys + birthday boy.

happy birthday cheng. (:

thanks for the listening ear and all the fun that you've brought to us with your wackyness.

must update us when the traffic light is turning green ok! :P

the next step.

2009-12-01T00:36:00.004+08:00

ive officially left the place which ive been with for the past 5 months.
dont wanna mention names, in case this gets googled.

still feeling emotional about this whole thing, shall let myself settle before i attempt to pen down what i feel about this whole journey lest my tears start prickling again when i talk about it.

freedom is all mine now.
it feels sweet, yet scary at the same time cos im robbed of my financial independance which shelters me from all the shit.
keeping my fingers crossed and letting myself rest till 12 dec and praying that plan A will work.

if not, have to chiong plan B already.
my miserable $800 isnt gonna last me long.

for now, i shall...

- clean up my room
- prep for plan A (download forms, read up on their company, etc)
- spend time with andre before he flys
- TAN! :D
- meetup with my friends whom i havent had time for due to work

* cheng's belate 21st
* jiening's belate 21st

*zoukout

*ladies night with no 3 and 5

*shopping with xinyi
*meetup with bryan

*kbox!

that's right. stay positive and focus on happy thoughts, weijie. (:

goodbye nov!

2009-11-29T23:44:00.003+08:00

fucking pissed.
you paint me as the devil when ure the one who disrespects my space.
well done.

each time im home for the whole day, no matter how beautiful the day is at the start, it'd still turn ugly in the end.
i need to snag the SIA interview on 12th dec and get out of this shit place.
if not, i'll just have to die die work something out.

anyway like i was saying, the earlier part of my day was beautiful.
slept in all the way till 2 and andre came over at 3 to surprise me with a blue and red rose and his ai xin bian dang for me.

then we spent some quality time together playing finger twister, camwhoring and admiring the beautiful scenery from my place.
the sky was really clear and the clouds were at eye level as im staying high high up.

i gave up the idea of winning andre at finger twister when i realised my hand was just too small.
:(
shall reserve this game to play with the girls.
nonetheless, im really touched that he's taking time off to do all these things for me even though you have two more papers to go.

went for tanning after he went off as the sun's too lovely to miss.
NLP-ed myself to run 6 rounds on the track after my relaxing tanning session.
feels good to be running and sweating again, hopefully ive managed to burn off some fats which ive been piling on due to the super long and much needed break from work though it came at the expense of my health.

but at least now i know i need to treat my body better. (:

HO it's FINALLY 12!
1st, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHENG WAI! (if youre still reading this space)
2nd, it's FINALLY end of nov = no more crazy working hours, and PAYDAY!
ive been waiting sooooooo long for this day to come. :D

goodbyes.

2009-11-23T00:10:00.004+08:00

LONDON – A British man who said he strangled his wife during a nightmare about fighting off an intruder has been found innocent in her death.

Thomas had accepted he had killed Christine, his childhood sweetheart and wife of 40 years, the jury was told at the beginning of his trial earlier this week.

The Thomases, who lived outside Swansea, about 185 miles (300 kilometers) west of London, were on holiday in their camper van in July 2008. After having their sleep disturbed by cars racing nearby, Brian Thomas had a nightmare that someone was breaking into the van.
The court was told that Brian Thomas suffered from a long-term sleep disorder and was in a state of automatism _ where his mind had no control over his body _ when he strangled Christine, with whom he had two daughters.

ouch.
i think i can kinda relate to this.

when andre and i were in taiwan,
he was having a bad dream about someone stealing his bike and he hit me in the face while he was asleep. :(

but if i were the guy, being acuquitted or not doesnt make a difference.

***

it was my sleep in sunday and i awoke to a text at 2pm.
it was from a foreign number which read that the causalty from a certain marathon held recetly had passed away.
the second beep that came in was, "ooops, sorry. wrong number."

just a few days ago, a professor collasped and never woke up again when he was carrying out his workout session.

and there's the recent loss of Alan Chee Zhi Hao, a primary and JC schoolmate whom i never got to know personally but has many mutual friends with.
my heart goes out to his friends and family.

it's cliche, but life's fragile and we only get to live once.

treasure the people around you by learning to appreciate them.
ive always been weak at showing feelings and appreciations due to the environment i was brought up in but im not gonna let that be an excuse anymore.

most importantly, chase those dreams that you have.
stand up for who you wanna be and what you want.

seeing how the uni people are struggling to keep up with school is making me have triple thoughts about going back to school.
although ive only been in the training industry for a few months, but being a trainer further cements my belief that books are not all that matter in life.

kids who are supposingly from the good schools and solid results are the ones who are disrepectful and think the world of themselves while kids who are "not as academically inclined" are the ones who showed respect, are helpful and warm.

im not implying anything here, neither am i saying that it's wrong to follow the conventional path.
what's most important is that no matter what path you follow, be certain that it leads you to where you want.

but if you ask me, i'll pick the unconventional path anytime simply because im just not cut out to follow the conventional one.

meeee theraphy.

2009-11-22T22:29:00.003+08:00

no worries im not gonna bring in many references for this entry.
just MEEEEE~

the crazyness is finally toning down & that leaves more time to do the things that i want.

let's see...
` did 6 rounds around the track this evening

` FINALLY pulled myself outta bed during my sleep in saturday to get my long lost mp3 cable

` dropping by bestie for chit chat session and monopoly card game + stealing songs from her and happily trainsferring them into my mp3 which went on a 3 months hiatus

` sitting down to watch my all time favourite taiwan varities , 我猜 and 星光.
must have been cos i was too busy with work to catch up with what's happening around me, i was damn shocked to know that 星光 is at season 6 already! i haven't even finished season 5. :(

` dedicating more time to oos

` FINALLY changing and starting on new blog template. gonna edit this basic template that they have and customise it into a more personal one SOON.

next up:
` tanning
` kboxing
` clearing up my room

i love watching 我猜 cos jackie wu never fails to crack me up and the prog is ever so innovative.
the issue that was aired last sat was about pretty girls who are super messy.
one of them had clothes and many other things all over her room and you couldnt even see the ground, let alone walk around in her room.
mom was watching it with me and i jumped at the opportunity to throw it back at her.

"SEE SEE! my room very tidy already!"
:P

2012.

2009-11-22T02:29:00.006+08:00

When life throws a curveball at you,
do you dogde or do you hit it hard with all your might to get it out of your face?

In a nutshell, 2012 is defintely worth the red smiley yusof ishak that you pull out of your wallet for.

why so?

well, any movie that makes Chen Weijie wanna tear is worth catching. :P
not forgetting that they have KICK ASS animations and effects!

it's been a really long time since i enjoyed a movie this much.
it made me LAUGH OUT LOUD (not that challenging since i love to laugh) and it also made me wanna cry ( now this is tough).

esp when the black guy was talking to the other presidents and when the "daddy" was telling his boy to stay behind, i could feel the tears welling in my eyes and my face crumbling.

due to work, ive been thinking a lot about parenting these days.
not that im ready to be a mother and neither do i plan to be one now, but parenting a child is really.. no joke.

and im sure this man will agree with me.

it's an old video, one which ive seen three years back.
nonetheless, the message is PPPAAAMMM in the face.

anyway, back to 2012.

it's a simple story, but the real-ness of it tugs at my heartstrings & i especially love how the various life stories of the characters were interwined so seamlessly.
the awesome editting and directing also reminded me of my DMC days where we had to do directing and editting.

yes, those were the days.
i can't imagine going back to school and putting myself through the books and all again.

to my dearest boyfriend and all my friends in uni:
hang in there!
we'll have a massive books burning session together after the papers ya? (:

p/s: thanks for the company today my dear.
i guess it's a really stressful period for you now, with the irritating flu bugging, drowiness from medicine and moutains of books to devour.
i enjoyed myself with you today and we'll have more of such to come after your papers. (:

debut!

2009-11-21T13:20:00.008+08:00

like i was saying in my earlier post,
me and mag meet up with marcus and did our photoshoot for our first oohsewsassy collection last sat.

and here's visuals that made up our 5 hours of hard work!
cos i was a total noob in posing/modelling, the ever helpful & patient marcus and mag had to spend time teaching me. :p

we do have more pieces actually, but they are not ready yet.

do support our debut collection and pass the love around! (:

webbie's at http://oohsewsassy.livejournal.com/

since im a narcissist ( i dont deny that!),
i shant resist posting another picture of me (left) and mag (right).

& here are some personal favourties!

when me and mag saw this piece, we fell in love with it immediately cuz we couldnt resist the unique lace straps and sweetheart M-shaped cut.

not forgettng that this piece is really versatile.
clubbing, dinner, girly night out, birthday partys, dates, you name it!

cardigan! haha ive always been afraid of cold so how can i not love them?
furthermore, there's lovely heart shapes all around. :D

mag's sexy back!

peek through lace details and body hugging material that accentuates the curveS.

subtle sexy-ness + sassy-ness = i like!

off shoulderssss, my natural soft spot.
plus there's a band at the bottom of the top so it actually helps to keep the tummy in.
i need that man!
have been having too much good food and ice creams!
hehe :P

huge thanks to marcus once again for helping us out! (:

wouldnt know what to do without his advicde and guidance.

it's finally launched!

im really excited about this.

go girls!

2009-11-21T12:23:00.003+08:00

there's a million and one dramas/movies out there that features the plot of what im gonna pen down:

a woman gives birth to her child, loves him very much but is forced by circumstances to give him up/ leave him behind.
even though he is out of her sight, he is never out of her mind.
she wonders if he is doing alright, if he needs her to be there for him, and if he is thinking of her like she is of him.

the juicy part sets in when one fine day when he's grown up, she gets to meet him again and wants to acknowledge him but circumstances make it diffcult for her to do so.

i feel like that mother now.

hockey has always been my no.1 priority during my SP days.
boyfriend, school, work and what nots were not even close to that no. 1 title, and it has always been my regret that i was unable to lead them to victory.
thus, i was really proud to know that the girls are doing really well for this season.

however, i was unable to be there for them when they rose from being the underdogs to beating the all time champs to vying for champion title.

what is left now is their final match for the champion title and it clashes with my work schedule.
im sorry i cant be there girls.
give all you have, and lay your hands on those medals that you deserve. (:

oh baby, let me love you.

2009-11-16T22:11:00.007+08:00

photo taken with my dearest no. 1 and no. 5 after my first noob shoot for my upcoming blogshop, oohsewsassy.
cant wait to get my hands on the photos from the shoot so i can use them for portfolio and air stewardess application purposes. i need to get down to applying for SIA before it closes.
fingers crossed!

back to my girls.
words are no longer enough to describe how blessed i feel to have all 4 of them in my life.
just know that i love you girls la okay? (:

personal point of view: diamonds are no longer girls' best friend, make up is!
im not so jialat till i will not leave my house without makeup, BUT makeup REALLY work wonders.

so guys, next time you see a pretty girl in club, get her to wipe off her makeup first before you decide whether she's a chiobu or not. :P

the weather's getting colder and colder by the day.
andre's gonna freeze when he goes over to china in dec. :(

dearest boyfriend:
take care when ure over there okay baby?
+ enjoy life and put on 5kg like i did the other time! :D

sometimes i don't know what should be said and what shouldn't.
im lousy at keeping things from you; or maybe cuz i don't want to as i believe honesty is always the best policy.

the history that we share, the health scare earlier in the year, the things that we worked together for, this relationship that we built from scratch.. they mean a lot to me.
i know you trust me, but i need you to believe in yourself.
he's a friend, he's not gonna be a threat.

i know i dont say this enough, but you've been really sweet these while.
waking me up at 5am++, sending me home, taking care of me even when u're dead tired, dropping by to surprise me with foodies, putting up with my temprements, and putting aside your studies to make sure that im fine when im moody.

looking forward to you coming back from china and us celebrating our first year together at the end of the year! (:

I love you baby
And if it's quite all right
I need you baby
To warm my lonely night
I love you baby
Trust in me when I say

Oh, pretty baby
Don't bring me down I pray
oh, pretty baby
Now that I found you, stay and let me love you
Baby let me love you...

2d1n.

2009-11-15T01:12:00.005+08:00

it may have been just two days but i learnt a hell lot from whatever that has happened, got to see things better, grew even more firm on my decision and learnt things about myself.

met a teacher and a couple of dragonboaters who are really warm and understanding, and im really thankful to them for helping me out and guiding me along.
it warms my heart cuz if strangers can do this for me, why can't you?
all you have for me are expectations and more expectations.
but it doesnt matter anymore.
i really need to leave and im finally able to justify why so.
TAIWAN! BALI! HERE I COME! :D

im so glad that i pulled chengwai in to join me on this.
working with a like-minded, trusted friend makes things so much easier and generates so much laughter.

together with mag, i had my first shoot this morning and im a total noob.
oohsewsassy is finally going to launch!
5 hours of work = 10 designs shot.
im keeping my fingers crossed and hoping that it would be well recieved.
please do support! featuring a number of pretty lace pieces in our first collection.

ive been so busy lately that i havent been talking much to my boy. :(
get well soon baby!
i look forward to our movie date (:D) after my work tomorrow aka SUNDAY.

sorry.

2009-11-10T00:07:00.005+08:00

the combination of fatigue, friendship and family issue turned me into a terrible person.
i threw tantrums at you and i ignored you.
you had your own stuffs to deal with and didnt need all those from me.

yet, you took it all and went through great lengths to let me know that you are there for me.
i feel ashamed,
i feel loved.

i am sorry love.
all the best for your papers (:

hello, goodbye?

2009-11-09T00:28:00.005+08:00

ive been hopelessly in love with stuffs that are unhealthy for my bank account recently.

should i or should i not?

money talks, time tells, actions speak.

2009-11-03T21:37:00.003+08:00

when april comes, im gonna catch up with GG2, cut my fringe, dye my hair a super obvious colour and enjoy myself to the max at taiwan with shups alvin and hopefuly kent. (:

a weak smile was the only thing i could offer when the guys asked how i motivated myself to continue working in line.
i love my job, i do.
but even daddy is telling me to leave, i guess it speaks quite a lot.

im not that type of girl who is used to staying in my comfort zone and can't take hardships.
but i need way more (money) than this in order to achieve what i want in life.

my (and andre's) 21st party was an unforgetable experience.
i was happy; i smiled and laughed from my heart but i wasnt truely happy.
i dont want to lie and give the typical "oh the party was good" for i dont want to hide the fact that im disappointed in some people.
but having said that, we are of cos appreciative of the people who took the efforts to put aside their stuffs and turn up for our party.

it's not about the money nor the presents.
rather, it's the simpliest things --- going the extra mile to adhere to the dress code no matter how "un-halloween" you are at heart or rushing down all the way, panting and wet just to wish us a simple happy birthday--- that counts.

ive always held you high in my "fav friend" list and i thought it was mutal.
apparently not.
instead, some of whom which ive not been spending time much with (because i was prioritizing you in my list) were the ones who made me feel really touched.

time tells, action speaks- what a bittersweet experience.

i just hope this is a rough patch in our friendship and not a gapping hole that can't be mend.
cos no matter how disappointed i am, i still treasure you.

DL.

2009-10-25T20:51:00.005+08:00

"if i had known, i wouldnt have given birth to her.... her attitude pierces my heart..she's worse than her brothers... i'll open my eyes wide and see how her mother-in-law treats her and see her cry.."

i left the black in the pail of water and told you that i needed it next day and asked you nicely to wash it.

u brushed me off and has no intention to wash it even till now.

i have to be to report to my workplace by 7am, get out of the house by 6am and roll out of bed at 515am.

it's 9pm already and she hasn't even washed my clothes, how is it supposed to dry?

tell me, am i supposed to go to work with a wet top like i did the other time?

and you blame me for flaring and hurl all those words at me.

who is piercing who's heart now?

i am truely grateful to you and dad for putting me through school and allowing me to gain access to education.

but it is not my fault that you have no intention to put yourself through the same thing.

im not talking about school here, im talking about self enrichment.

we did encourage you to learn english or PC but all you did was to say N.O. to it.

there's many things which i would love to explain to you and tell you about, but you simply do not understand due to your limited understanding of many things, sadly.

when you GLARED at me and MEH me with your " YOU HAVE TO WEAR THIS TOP MEH?" as i asked you nicely to wash the top, i wish i could explain to you that "yes, i have to cos my boss wants us to wear a formal black top that has sleeves."

but there's no way you'd understand the concept of formal no matter how much i explain, so i can only stomach the glares and that MEH silently.

next step to freedom: OWN HOUSE.

im truely sick of being under the same roof as you.

dear friends,

do let me know if you are aware of SIA's opening for air stewardess.

i need the money. i need to put the distance between me and her. i need the freedom.

everywhere!

2009-10-25T17:01:00.013+08:00

my blog lacks human touch aka PICTURES.

i love sundays where i can sleep in and roll around in my bed till andre texts me to say "baby stop rolling around in bed! wakie!"
or when i get to talk to him on the phone when i'm still lazing in bed. (:

BUT my supposingly carefree sunday turned stressful when the mind gets cluttered with things like how many people are CONFIRM attending the party and what caterer to engage.
throw in the time factor and u've got me a concoction for "the perfect stress potion".

ALRIGHT, aint gonna let that affect me too much cos WO SHI XING FU DE as i still have the time to sit down and blog, rather than having to scramble for the books.
honestly, im feeling so comfortable with working life that i cant imagine what it is like to have to go back to school.
for one, financial independence aka "being-able-to-substantially- stand-on-my-own-feet-and-not-having-my-basic-necessities-threatened-by-my-mom" really means a lot to me.
sure, ive been working and has stopped getting pocket money from my parents since i was 17 but the pathetic 200-400 per month is hardly enough for me to make ends meet; not to mention having to juggle school, cca, work and social life is "the ultimate stress potion".

geez, enough on my ramblings.
photos time!

9th oct to 10th oct- kent' 21st party & darwin's welcome back bbq.

all the girls with the lucky birthday boy. (:

attempt of taking our "2 ren shi jie" photo kenna "chap" by the guys.

STILL kenna chap by chengwai!

fine, i'll chap YOUR photo then! :P

people who stayed over and played "circle of death".

we drank a hell lot!

stayover at andre's the next day and the very sweet boyfriend made breakfast for us and bought prata for me upon. (:

darwin's welcome back bbq.

12th oct 09- peiwen's 21st!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEIWEN! (:

5th oct-

chiong-ed down to NTU to meet my personal tour guide who brought me to the concert hall and got me munchies as he was afraid that i would be hungry.

Lala is really good (live) i must say.

i love her 失落沙洲 and her very true to self style (:

my personal tour guide came to pick me up after the concert and surprised me with the BIG SILVER BALLON. (:

i love this shot!:D

17 oct- marina barrage date with weirdos!

food that kept us muching away for 4 hours.

ima jiu gui HAHA!

high on the topic of what to wear for my 21st party. potato chips horn! hahahaha!

lazy to order the pics but thank you to yihan and jiening for documenting all these sweet memories with their cameras (:

simply love the company and the photos.

in fact, i had people asking me where the place was upon seeing the photos.

it's at marina barrage! take train to marina bay and there will be a shuttle bus to take u there. (:

24th oct- party prep
i had fun with my girlies who put aside time to help me prepare for my party without any complains even when their fingers got burnt and their brain juices squeezed dry from the "voting ideas".
im really touched, thank you girls. (:
i honestly wouldn't be able to manage without you girls.

p/s: no.3 & 4, no worries if u couldn't join us yesterday. we are gonna enjoy ourselves on sat! (:

yay! time for the long awaited jog and then meeting with bf later! :D

off the head.

2009-10-24T01:25:00.003+08:00

it's been a joyous and fulfilling october.

st james with xy and girls, kent's party, peiwen's birthday celeb, stayover at andre's, marina barrage picnic with the girls, lunch with bestie, etc.

age's catching up on me.

my memory's failing me and i get tired out easily.

i cant blog with a clear state of mind now.

but i just want to document down my thoughts as i know it'd be a long long time before i am able to do so.

time really isn't on my side.

the last week of oct is gonna be the most xiong of all.

full day progs on monday and 8-?? pm on tue.

3d2n camp from wed-fri.

dbl O on friday night and andre & my 21st party on sat.

i want to sing, and i have no idea what to sing!

suggestions are much appreciated! (:

nov's jam packed with progs everyday till the 18th as well.

i believe i need the rest of dec to recuperate after that.

ran around bugis, clementi and IMM with andre to get our party stuffs settled just now.

i love playing with the party stuffs!

they are so fun that i feel like buying all :P

thank you for taking time off for me, my dear. (:

not forgetting my girlies as well- suanhwee, jiening, cat and yihan- for helping me out with my party stuffs.

we were super high at marina barragae while we talked about our halloween costumes and what nots to wear. :D

in case u're thinking of getting me a pressie and wondering what i want for my birthday,

i dont mind having a polarid or lomo camera for fun i don't really NEED anything at the moment EXCEPT for $$$.

cos' nobody should provide me with what i really want- driving license, lasik, dancing classes, DSLR, travelling funds, uni school fees.

halloween costumes.

2009-10-17T16:19:00.003+08:00

awww, this absolutely melts my heart!

and i still have no idea what i wanna be. =x

branded.

2009-10-07T22:20:00.005+08:00

no, not LV/Gucci/Prada unfortunately.

ive been branded as the bane of the family once again.
work has been draining me out lately; try waking at 530, starting work at 730 and ending work at 6+ everyday.
im too tired to feel much about the quarrels between me and her.
my very sweet boy listened to me all the way and coaxed me to sleep when i was at the peak of my frustrations.

although sometimes he may be a little clueless, but im really thankful for him.
ive no idea how many people kan hao us but it doesnt matter; ive never allowed what others thought to get in the way of what i believe in.

from our dating days, to the merry-go-round, to getting together, being together.
we've gone through quite a bit of things together.

whenever we are unhappy with each other, we talk about it.
but i know im not good with my words and im really straightforward.
im sorry if my words got to you.
please dont belittle yourself.
:(
it saddens me to see you sad too.

the name calling and verbal abuses by her evoked the "i wanna move out of this house and have my own house" desire again.
to tell the truth, i really don't mind renting a room out there either.
i think our '8 characters' really clash, we just cant get along.
thank god im financially independant & contributing to the household allowance now.
thus, she has one less thing to pick on.

i was whining about stressful working life can be to andre and stopped when i caught a glimpse of his crazy list of "to-dos".
come to think of it, i kinda like the stage of my life now though i do miss school too.
working life = finanical independance, job satisfaction/sense of achievement, routine life.
i have a direction to work towards now instead of sleeping at wee hours and waking up late.
furthermore, looking at my colleagues who are mostly in their 30s, it comforts me to know that i have 9 years to catch up and be even better than them when im their age.

" Life can be complicated but happiness is really pretty simple.
Enjoy the little things, for one day you may look back and realize that they were big things".
-- Robert Brault.

case solved!

2009-10-04T16:59:00.002+08:00

before i delve into work and prepare for the present hunting @ jp and durian session @ geylang later, i'd just like to share that case of my missing pay cheque is solved! :D

woke up to find a DBS letter addressed to me, stating that my cheque bounced cos there was no name on it.

PHEW! at least now i can set my mind at ease knowing that it's not in someone else's bank account.

next step, planing my finances!

- 5x reward for my one-time purchase at watsons for my birthday month = STOCK UP TIME!

- $128 la prairie facial @ taka, 50% sponsored by mommmy as part of my 21st present.

- birthday preparations

- blogshop funds.

mag and i are gonna launch our blogshop at the end of oct, hopefully.

pretty clothes coming your way!

stay tuned, people! (:

stay home sunday.

2009-10-04T14:07:00.006+08:00

it's no secret that i'm a fan of xiao jing teng, a CRAZY fan of his in fact. :p

he is so damn zai that if he hadn't forgotten the lyrics, i would have thought that he is lip-syncing.

psstt check out his funny opening pose!

despite my terrible monday blues, the week turned out really well. (:

met up with the lame king cheng and lame queen queen xinyi for kbox on tue and owned them with my lame-ness. ^^

as usual, we k till we dropped and went mac for ice cream.

i didn't want to eat anything actually, but i got influenced by xinyi.

can you see how sinful is it girl?!!?! :(

with everyone starting school and my both legs stepped into the working world, such moments are hard to come by.

haven't seen some of them since the taiwan trip, i miss those 2008 merry making days.

looking forward to kent's party on friday. (;

& happy 21st jiesheng! (:

went down to BAS to root for andre's match after work on wed.

the boys won the game :D

when i first started going down to support him for his matches, andre used to be afraid that i would be bored.

sometimes i see other bored girlfriends sitting in to root for their boyfriends and i pity them.

but for me, i LOVE doing and watching sports, live.

& i cheer all over the place- for my boyfriend, for his team and for his teammates.

being on the side lines has also allowed me to appreciate and marvel at the beauty of teamwork; of how it taps on the strength of each individual to make to achieve a common goal.

for example: you can be an ordinary, over-sized guy whom people don't even take a second look at when walking on the streets.

but if you believe that you are born into this world with a purpose, embrace yourself for who you are and work hard at what you're good at, ( i.e. using your big frame to your advantage and

getting the rebounds for your team) then instead of an ordinary guy, you ARE the one who shines in the crowd.

this was what that triggered my love for basketball btw. (:

i was reading/watching this even before i met andre.

together with one piece, slam dunk is the only other comic that i read and i bought the whole set of it when i was in Shanghai and lugged it all the way back to Singapore, which turned out to be one of our all time favourite topics when we were dating. :P

had our favourite king of fruits, the red king prawn version @ $10 per box and it was YUMMYLICIOUSLY-LOVELY! :D

indeed, price = quality.

friday was the day where bestie and i continued our childhood tradition of mooncake and candles.

been catching up with her these days and im glad.

dont wanna her to go through all these alone.

sat was "satisfying heels craving day" + st james day.

had this sudden urge to get a pair of new heels for work since 2 out of 3 pairs of my working heels are chui already.

swung by anchorpoint, got a pair of pretty golden sandals which im keeping my fingers crossed to pass off as working shoes.

after the mini shopping spree, went to the track for a 3 round jog instead of a 5 round jog as it was drizzling.

reminds me of those times where we would run together as a team even if it was drizzling.

peiwen, xinyi, gina and me had our very own ladies night and music at st james was good.

in fact, one of the better ones so far till it started playing trance around 3am.

WHY?!?!

had 3 jugs, a apple shooter and no more no more no more cos we are poor girls.

a random guy tried to invite me and the girls over to their table and i turned it down.

even when i'm a poor girl, i will only let my pocket/ my boyfriend's/ my friend's pocket pay for my drinks.